Beauty & The Beast

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I just woke up from my much needed sleep as I just got back from SD'S LTC like this evening around 6.

The camp was pretty much fun, especially the water activities on the last day of the camp. (: I tried bombing Azlina twice with the water bombs but that girl is like a bloody bouncing sponge man. The first water bomb bounced off her abdomen and the second water bomb bounced off her neck. Sheesh. On the other hand, she caught me off guard and bombed me from behind.

~Kudos to you babe! (:

Ohya! Haagen Daaz finally called me up like yesterday when I was on my way to camp, telling me to come down to the HQ and sign a form or something, which I only did today. Apparently, tomorrow I have to wake up pretty damn early(when I was looking forward to sleeping in and waking up late tomorrow -.-) and make my way to Raffles to get my typhoid injection AGAIN for the second time this year(cuz that stupid fucken FCX lost my original typhoid injection slip which I submitted to them AFTER taking my typhoid jab in April) and submit the receipt and the form to their HQ at Dhoby Ghaut.

Ok. That was pretty long. Complicated much? I guess. I wanna continue with my model. I wanna play my Pokemon Platinum after that.

GOOD RIDDANCE TO 2009!

P.S: Na na na na. Hey hey hey. GOODBYE!

10:11 PM

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After rotting away at home on Wednesday and Thursday. which was good for me cuz I needed to rest after going out and coming home so late at night for the past week in a row, I celebrated Christmas at Petrina's Christmas party together with the NNK clique.

It was super duper fun. We ate and chit chatted about alot of stuff. (:

Now, I'm at my younger brother's crib, just chilling out and spending quality time with my family here.

Oh! 2009 will be G.O.N.E in a few days time and I can't wait for it to go away. Not that it was entirely bad but lets just say that this year hasn't exactly been a good year for me.

P.S: 6 more days

10:51 PM

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Today is Christmas Eve. Which means to say that 2009 will be over in a week's time and boy. Am I glad to see 2009 go out the door.

2009 hasn't exactly been a bed of roses for me what with all the turmoil, drama and saga that took place this year. I mean, it wasn't all bad. There were pretty good memories but comparing the good memories to the bad times, the bad times far outweighs the good ones. -.-

Bad Times:

-Got together and broke up.
-Politics breaking out in my cliques.
-Fought with one of my NNK friends a couple of times, all cuz of conflicting perspectives but thankfully, we made up.
-Lost a very close, beloved friend of mine and now, we're still friends but we're no longer as close as before and I doubt that we can ever become very close back again like last time. Till this very day, whenever the memories and the good times we shared comes flooding back, tears well up in my eyes. Cuz I know that things between us can never be the same again. Yes. I've finally accepted the fact that you're gone but that doesn't necessarily mean that I don't feel hurt by it. I'm afraid to love for fear that I will get hurt back again like what happened back then.
-Family troubles.
-Worried about my younger brother's O Level results.
-Worried about my other close friends' condition due to the shits that's been hurled at them.
-My best friend and I got terminated UNFAIRLY all cuz of some FUCKED UP FEELING HIGH CLASS BIATCH CUSTOMER who lodged a FALSE complain against us, thus shattering our rice bowls and causing us to be jobless until now. ~Curse you and your mother fucken family! Hope karma hits you back 10 TIMES WORSE than what you did to us you fucken slimeball!
-One of my close friends got fined $550 for possession of contraband ciggs and for being an underaged smoker and all of us had to break our heads open to figure out a way for him to get the money.
-My aunty called me up, complaning to me, suspecting that my cousin, whom I'm very close with, is on drugs.

Good Times:

-On the other hand, the GYLC at Batam was very very memorable and sweet. Made a lot of new and close friends there. Ash(my beloved bro), Khairil, Fikry, Dana, Afiq, K.Y, Kelly, Sufea, Rahmat. Bonded even closer with the SD clique who attended the camp.
-National Day 09 was by far the second best day of my life other than the GYLC days. Cuz I got to hang out and spend time with my most beloved peeps on that day.
-Broke fast at Geylang together with the Fuckers clique
-Jalan raya together with the FCX, Fuckers and SD & GYLC clique

Overall, I think that the bad times I've faced this year far outweighs the good ones. Even my younger brother, Adek Khairil, told me that this year hasn't been a good year for him or for his friends for that matter. Everywhere I turn to, I hear stories from my friends about their current situations and the problems they're facing and all of us unanimously agreed that 2009 OFFICIALLY SUCK BALLS!

I haven't exactly made my New Year Resolutions yet. I'm not even sure whether I wanna make them or no. Cuz I know that I tend to break the resolutions I've set for myself. However, I'm not exactly growing any younger by the day. It's about time I made resolutions and DISCIPLINE myself to stick by them for the entire year and NOT break them. I guess I'll make my New Year Resolutions soon.

~To everyone, whom I am/were close with (Bros, FCX, Fuckers, SD, GYLC, NNK, Other peeps whom I'm close with) :

I just wanna thank you guys for everything you've done for me. No matter how small the deed is, it is appreciated by me. I'm sorry if I ever hurt and offended you guys with what I said and did to you before. I'm sorry if I ever lost my temper with you, allowed my ego to get in the way or showed my attitude. I'm grateful to Allah for the fact that I have you guys around in my life and you guys motivate me and spur me onto greater heights.

Special thanks goes out to Afiq, Khairil, Tun, Zakk, Qom, Aliff, Kaz and Ash. You guys were always there for me whenever I needed someone. You've heard me laugh, you've seen me cry and you know my sorrows. You guys understood me from the inside out. We've been through ups and downs together. What, I shall not elaborate cuz that's between each of you and me. But just know that from the bottom of my heart, I really appreciate all the times when you guys took the time off to listen to me ranting away about the shits I was facing back then, when you guys were there for me whenever I hit rock bottom and to give me a comforting hug when I needed one. I love the 8 of you tremendously and nothing and noone can replace you guys.

Now. All I can do is to pray to Allah and hope that the next year, being 2010, will be a better year, not just for me, but for everyoneelse out there who felt that 2009 was full of nothing but crap and bullshit.

P.S: Please let 2010 be a better year.

3:17 PM

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Today had no plans initially. Achap suddenly called me up, inviting me and Tun to slack with him and Kaz at the airport. Since I was too tensed up with sitting at home, I decided to just go ahead despite the fact that I was damn tired from going out and coming back home late the past week in a row and I was literally 'Me-Time-Deprived'.

Anyways. Guys are such a pain in the ass. Why? They're already attached. But when someone else comes along and pays attention to them in a very sweet manner, they fall for that someone else as easily as it is for them to apply lubricant on their hands and shake their dicks till they cum. Their relationship with their current spouse goes down the drain despite the fact that they've been together for months or even years and it's all cuz of some trumped up boyfriend grabbing slut. God. I didn't know that such assholes still walk around in this planet. Sheesh.

Only my NNK clan will know who and what I'm talking about. And I don't give a fucken piece of shit if I were to get into trouble for blogging about this cuz I state facts you MOFO. I don't blog about things I have no clue about nor do I blog about things which I have no concrete evidence or witnesses for. You wanna find me for stating facts? By all means, go ahead. I ain't scared. The only one I'm afraid of is not you or anyone but Allah Himself. You wanna beat the living crap outta me? Take your aim and fire away. At the end of the day, the only person who will be holding the short end of the stick and will feel stupid and embarrassed is yourself. (:

P.S: Turn-offs

11:10 PM

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Today, somehow, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and started off on the wrong foot. A small matter somehow collided with other matters and thus, snowballed into one hugey. I mean I was so damn stupid to forget to bring my lighter and ez-link card and thus, had to keep rushing back home to take them one at a time. -.- Nevermind. I shall not elaborate. I just wanna forget the stupid bad shit that happened today and focus and cherish on the beautiful new memories created today, being the clique's photoshoot.

I left my house late cuz I had to wait for my dad to come back home in order to get money. Headed down to Tamp One to send Adek Khairil's laptop for servicing. Proceeded to Marina Barrage to meet the clique there(bumped into Zach in the MRT heading towards Marina Bay). Waited for the remaining clique members to arrive before starting the photoshoot. Pics will be uploaded onto Facebook on Wednesday. (:

Cab-bed our asses down to Kampong Glam Cafe to drink teh, eat our dinner and slack. It felt so good and so wonderful to be able to hang out with the entire clique again after such a long time. Yes. Fah, Qom and Izzy were missing and we miss you guys terribly but we made the most out of who was present. Izzat, Danny, Rachael, Fiany and Seth joined us, making it all the more merrier. (:

I think I shall take a sabatical for the next few days or so. Been going out alot and coming back so late at night for the past few days. I just need to take some time off to spend some quality time with myself and my grandmother. And I also gotta finish that stupid IDS model AND the complex structure WITHIN the model. -.-

P.S: Sabatical

12:31 AM

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Just a short blogpost before I head back to doing my HDB model.

Yesterday, after so long of not meeting them and spending some quality time with them due to those bloody school ASSignments, I finally met my younger brother, Adek Khairil, and my older sister, Kak Rina and played monopoly with them and my brother-in-law, Abg Khairul and Jade. Watched the very vintage season of X-Men(the very first and second season) on my laptop.

Two weeks of holidays left and I still haven't done loads of things. Dossier, Kung Fu Manual, Hti journal and essay, HDB model, complex structure.

Gtg lovelies.

P.S: 2 weeks = More shits to do -.-

12:55 PM

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Hey all. I just got back from the chalet and I had a tremendous amount of fun there. Yes. After all the drama and saga that took place on Wednesday, my friends and I managed to pool our money to book a chalet for Thursday and Friday. It was at the very last minute mind you.

With just us, we did alot of stupid stuff together. Pillow fights, Lotto, Dare or Double Dare, movie marathons, danced. You name it. We did it. Qom, Aliff, Danial, Samir and Faris came down to join us.

~Thanks guys for coming.

Now, I'm desperate. To finish up my bloody model. To finish up my complex structure within the model. To get a good sleep.

P.S: Shagged

12:11 PM

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Urgh. I hate it when plans have already been made and people are so looking forward to the day of the planned event only to have it scrapped or cancelled at the very last minute. I'm talking about the chalet from today till Friday! I mean everyone of us were so looking forward to the chalet this week and we already planned out the things to do and stuff.

Suddenly, we can't get hold of the keys to the chalet and stuff and now we're stuck. No idea what to do or where to go. There goes our planning. There goes our excitement. There goes everything. All gone down the drain. And I ain't too happy about that. Sheesh.

3:31 PM

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Yes. My brand new cardigan. That cost half of my weely allowance. Do I regret buying it? A little, seeing as I'm going broke and succumbing to my weakness of shopping. But then again. I can squeeze more moo-lah outta my dad every week for my weekly allowance and I've also got a job though I have no idea when I start. They only called me up like barely an hour after I applied, telling me that I've been selected and that I had to submit my documents, which I already did. :)

P.S: Fingers crossed.

4:41 PM

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Brace yourselves.

I'VE FINALLY GOT A JOB AND I'M ECSTATIC ABOUT IT!

BOOYAH!

Cuz I've been jobless for 8 LONG FREAKING MONTHS! 8 months of being broke! Now, I've got a job. Long story short, the manager of that outlet called me up, telling me that I was selected. :)

P.S: Job-bed at last.

8:37 PM

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Today. Or should I say yesterday seeing as it's already past 12. Zakk and I planned to just drink teh and slack together with Fiany. But plans changed. I asked Zakk whether she wanted to go Ion instead and she said on, since she was an Ion virgin. Fiany tagged along, together with her friend, Danial Afiq. Fah tagged too. Danny joined us for dinner but had to leave shortly after to meet his friends.

What we did was walk around Far East Plaza, Ion and Wisma Atria before slacking at Spinelli's. Met my bro, Ash, at his working place at Ion. Anyways, awesome day today. :)

Later on I have filming shits to do. Planning to submit my temple model and research today and collect my gray card at the same time. I really hope that today would be the LAST day of filming for me cuz really, it's starting to get annoying, having to bail out on my friends and postponing or cancelling plans altogether just to come back to school OVER THE HOLIDAYS TO FILM AND RE-FILM THE SAME OLD SCENES OVER AND OVER AGAIN cuz the previous takes were not good or up-to-standard. -.- I have a life too ya know? Sheesh.

Ok. I'm off to Pokemon Land now. Got loads of Pokemon to catch. :)

And lately, as of yesterday, I just have this feeling that you no longer trust me and that you're avoiding me. Maybe cuz I probed too much about your personal matters. Or maybe cuz I chatted with you for so long, not knowing that you wanted to sleep already and hence, you had to force yourself to keep awake just to pay attention to my bull and crap. And from the way you texted me just now when I texted you, asking whether you were Ok due to something that I saw, it seems like you're avoiding me and refuse to tell me what's wrong. Not that I mind cuz I understand perfectly if you refuse to tell me and I won't force you to tell me if you don't want to. But it's just..Weird cuz normally, you WOULD tell me if something's bugging you, like a few days back. Or then again, I'm just being paranoid. Who knows? But whatever it is, I'm truly, sincerely sorry.

P.S: Pokemon is the NEW SEX. Back in trend. :)

12:38 AM

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Today. I ain't doing nothing. No plans. Stuck at home doing HTI journal entries and finishing up my Komyo-Ji temple model. Planning to get started on my HDB 4 unit model on Monday when I collect my gray cards from school. Also, I'm submitting my Komyo-Ji temple research and model on Monday. I've also got filming on Monday. Hopefully, it will be the LAST day of filming cuz really. It's damn sickening to have to come back over the holidays just to film and refilm (that's right. I said RE-film) the same scene over and over again. -.- *Fingers crossed*

Went to Simpang Bedok to have dinner and slack with Zakk there. We did some catching up. :)

From afar, seems I had it all. But it doesn't mean anything. Now that you're gone.

You don't know. I doubt you do. But still. The feeling sucks. Only the closest of friends know how I feel. But then again. I have to let go and move on. But it's hard. Not for the lack of trying.

P.S: Doesn't mean anything

5:52 PM

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Heyho readers! I'll just dive straight in.

For today, I woke up damn early. Had to seeing as I had an appointment with my skin specialist at 9.30 at CGH. My beloved granny accompanied me. (: Consulted the doctor. The nurse scrapped some skin. Had to wait for an hour for the results so we breakfast-ed at Qiji.

Granny: So now what you want to do?
Me: I want to smoke. Kenyang sgt.
Granny: We got around 1 hour right?
Me: Yes.
Granny: Kay. Then we go jln2 cuci mata around East Point.
Me: Settle.

Bussed our asses down to East Point. Accompanied my granny to walk around Pet Safari and the entire mall. Did some shopping. But mostly my granny's stuff la. I bought some stuff for myself as well.

~NNK. I bought the lotto set already. All set and ready to rumble for the chalet next week. :) ~

Headed back to the hospital to get my results. Went back home. Went out again to Daiso at IMM to buy balsa wood. Slacked with Danny. We talked about alot of stuff. Now, I can feel that we're getting close. :)

Now. Back to HTI journal. -.-

12:47 AM

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Holidays. What's that? Brag to any Year 1 DID student that you're currently having your holidays and you'll get smacked around the head or slapped hard on the face. Why? Cuz we DID Year 1 students have NO lives. Not that we CHOSE to have no lives. We've got tons of holiday assignments to do and one huge momma's ass model to build. Fml much? Jyeah. Come on people. Say it again. *Cups hand around ears*

Holiday plans have already been made. Chalet. Christmas party. Hanging out with friends. Looks like I'm gonna be jobless AGAIN for the third holiday in a row. Man. Being jobless = being cashless = No enjoyment = BIG TIME BOO BOO! This sucks! Not for the lack of trying. I applied EVERYWHERE. Sent my resume online to as many stores as I could as possible without breaking my arm. Diligently filled in application forms and applied for a job at anyplace where there's a vacancy. But still. Up till now. No phonecalls, saying 'YOU'RE HIRED!'. Just silence. -.-

~Why don't you stores just rip apart your huge ass 'NOW HIRING' or 'VACANCY' or 'PART-TIMERS NEEDED' posters and dump it in the chute? Cuz it's pointless isn't it to put up such a huge poster SCREAMING all those mofo words if you're not even gonna bother to at least call up or interview the person or people who walked in to apply for a job at your outlet/place.~

I really don't get them. Put up 'NOW HIRING' posters but never call the people who walked in to apply. Stupid. Maybe they don't understand the meaning of 'NOW HIRING'. Stupid people.

Ok. I wanna go back home already. Gotta get started on those holiday assignments. No pokemon-ing for now I guess. -.-

~Ash brother! You must be happy that I got holiday assignments while you can slack right? GG.~

Had an awesome time hanging out with the Fuckers today. Not all of them were there. Only Palat, Ray and Lame.

P.S: Groans

6:17 PM

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This week. DID Class 01 are only schooling for 2 days being today and tomorrow. Yes. We're awesome. We know that. :) Tomorrow's our crit session. Luckily, our crit lecturers are Kelly and YS. The bestest DID lecturers in my opinion.

Anyways, I'm getting worried about the huge HDB model that I have to build over the holidays. I mean. It would be my first building model that I'm gonna build. -.- Oh well. I'll just give it my best shot then.

Ok. Gotta get back to my groupwork now. Have tons of slides to do.

P.S: Holiday.

1:33 PM

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READERS! Anyone interested in an upcoming party at Wavehouse, Sentosa, on the 19th of December from 4pm to 4am?

Details.

Date: 19th December
Time: 4pm - 4am
Venue: Wavehouse, Sentosa
Pricing: $25 (with 2 $10 worth of vouchers)
Genre: R&B, Trance, House
Drinks: Standard bar drinks
DJ: DJ Stanley (Austrailia's No. 1 Hip Hop Artist Black Label Crew)
Event: Mixed age party :)

So if you guys are interested, feel free to contact me via Facebook or MSN. If you people have my number, all the better cuz you guys can also contact me via text or phonecall if you do have it.

And fyi, I'm helping a friend of mine to market this. So I'm getting the tics from him. You pay me the money, I pass the money to him. He passes me the tics. I pass it to you guys. Deal? Settle.

P.S: Where my party people at?

3:22 PM

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Today I didn't go to school. Reason being? There's no need to. Asked Rye for her help to submit my 2 drawing folders for IDR.

~Thanks Rye many2!

I woke up at around 7+ in the morning and couldn't go back to sleep again. -.- Hate it when that happens. Surfed the net, played Neopets(yes, I still do play it and I'm not embarrassed about admitting it. It kills the boredom okayyy). Showered, ate breakfast and FINALLY managed to sleep back again at around 11, noon or was it 1? *Scratches head* Ar who the hell cares. I know I did sleep back again.

Woke up at around 3 when Tun called me up. Lepak-ed with the NNKs. Went back home. Now? Doing MAT1 dossier. -.-

Holidays also like not holidays. Got stupid holiday ASSignments to do. Screw you DID ASSignment coordinators. How the hell am I supposed to build a 4 unit HDB model using the 1:20 scale WITH the architectonics model contained within it?

~WYAN! I need the HDB unit measurements!

Currently listening to Dragonforce songs. My younger brother got me addicted to them. -.- Tell me to listen to it last year and I would have slammed a pot over your head. Tell me to listen to it now and I would blast it. :)

I just realised. I'm so random in this post. That's what happens when you've lost your marbles. Chiaoz!

P.S: Going crazy. xD

9:36 PM

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I just found out that there's gonna be a brand new IDS assignment for the HOLIDAYS! I'm like WHAT?!!!!! We already chiong-ed our asses off for the entire term for all of our assignments for each and every single one of our modules because we were so looking forward to enjoying our 3 weeks of the holidays and now, we even have to break open our heads to finish up our new assignment during the HOLIDAYS?! How is that fair?? We can't even enjoy ourselves during school days and barely get enough sleep as it is and now, our holidays have also been robbed from us cuz we have to do our HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT?

P.S: Screw design.

10:14 AM

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Body. Heart. Mind. Soul. The 4 main aspects of any human being. According to Sean Covey's book meant for teens, all teenagers should strengthen these 4 aspects of themselves in order to lead a happy and balanced lifestyle. For me. An interior design student? I'm breaking my head and mind open every single day with assignments so that's done. Heart wise, I love my family, younger brother and close friends so that can be crossed off my list. I only need to work on my body and soul aspects in order to attain enlightenment. Haha! :)

Apparently, I finally figured out what was wrong with me since way back in April. What turned me into this fucked up bastard that I am. It's the bad habits that have been incorporated into me for so long, for years, in fact, that's making me so bitter and cold and resentful. I'm currently working on breaking these bad habits bit by bit so that eventually, in time to come, I will be able to break and get rid of these bad habits once and for all for good. It will be a long road ahead of me but if I can persevere and get through this winding road, I've got a lot of positive consequences that are waiting for me ahead.

I can't guarantee that I will be able to get you back in my life and that, we can become close back again like before cuz that is up to the hands of Allah. Chances of us becoming close back again like last time are almost close to zero. But I still have hopes.

I know that by breaking these bad habits and getting rid of them permanently will change people's perception of me. I will be able to make many more new friends this way. I won't lose anymore friends. My life will be completely better. I'm actually smiling while posting this cuz I know that in time to come, things will get better.

She was right. She will watch me fall and she did watch me fall. I did get hurt. I did get a taste of my own medication. Finding out the truth from her actually shocked me cuz I didn't expect it. The things she told me that shocked me has nothing to do with her and me. It's to do with me and someone else. But I guess I deserved it. I deserved what I got. Losing my close friend actually shook up my world and brought me back down to Earth. Having the hurtful truth unfold before my very eyes by what she told me last night actually gave me a tight reality slap on my face and brought me back to my senses.

P.S: I will change. But will someone notice?

2:43 PM