Beauty & The Beast

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Saturday night, I crashed with Adek Khairil again and we did the same old stuff we did last week, like playing Pair Call. Only diff? We bonded over you tube surfing and playing POKEMON! HAHAHA! He saw me playing it on my laptop and wanted to try out as well. So I transfered everything to his laptop and the both of us spended the evening playing that.

As for today, I went back to East View with the Fuckers. Pics have already been uploaded onto Facebook. Had fun and all my teachers there told me that I looked groovy, hip, and that I changed a lot. Bullshit in my opinion cuz I still look the same.

Adek Afiq called me up and invited me to hang out with him and Sein at Pasir Ris which I did. Visited my primary school and the best part? My primary school teachers actually forgot who I was cuz according to them, I looked so different. Changed my appearance drastically. I didn't go for plastic surgery ok?

Now, I'm just slacking at home. Holidays have already begun and I'm free from my assignments for the next 1 and a half months.

P.S: What to do over the holidays?

4:20 PM

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I read Rina's blog today and for once, I have to agree with what she said. Just leave the past behind and start afresh. And I'm not just talking based on school terms alone. I'm talking about my life, friendships, brotherhood.

All the grudges beared, all the bitter fights and arguements that erupted between me and my friends/brother must all go out the window! Time for me to keep my anger in check. Revamp.

Oh. By the way, I'm so gonna miss Sam, Zakk, Sya and especially, Qom. They're moving onto a different class next sem. Do keep in touch aitz? I love you guys.

P.S: A period of evolution. Of Change

12:41 PM

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I guess you're right. I asked of your honest opinion and you gave it to me. The truth was harsh but I had to accept it cuz it's the truth that you hurled and landed SMACK on my face.

No use apologizing cuz I would repeat it all over again anyway. At times like this, I think you deserve a better friend/brother/besty.

P.S: Bruised

8:46 PM

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Facebook's being a bitch. I have no idea why but I'm having difficulties uploading last night's pics. I spent an entire 45 minutes watching 1 whole freaking episode of Charmed and I even had time to shower after that and when I came back, Facebook automatically logged my account out. I've been trying since afternoon and all I managed to upload were like 14 out of oh, say, a HUNDRED over pics, which includes last night's as well as last Tuesday's and last week's and I've also got 2 more videos to upload.

Screw Facebook. Did I mention that the whole lot of us slacked and busted our heads last night as a post-party event cum celebration thingy?

P.S: Don't be a bitch Facebook.

8:57 PM

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Last night was the Common Foundation Party and there's only 1 word to describe it.

AWESOME!

I worked the runway and did my thing as a demonstration to the Best Dressed Finalists. I performed and I danced my ass off(not literally, otherwise how to shit).

Pictures and videos alike will and are currently being uploaded onto my Facebook account. If you wanna view them, you have to add me up as a friend first cuz there's no chance in hell am I gonna let any Tom, Dick or Harry or some outsider, whom I don't even know for that matter, view the pictures and the videos, when that person isn't even a friend of mine, be it on Facebook or in reality alike.

P.S: Enjoyed. Looking forward to the next one.

3:11 PM

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I've been attending my dance practices and rehearsals for the past 2 days, where we've been dancing from morning till evening although we're fasting. It's actually. Erm. I don't really know how to explain this but it's like a feeling of elation, where our efforts and sweat actually paid off, seeing the entire choreography work out well.

There are certain parts in the middle, where we have to brush up but other than that, everythingelse is perfect. I'm just too shagged to continue blogging now. Will update soon enough.

P.S: 1 more day

1:41 AM

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So I had a great time last night. I met Adek Khairil after having not met him for quite some time. The original plan? Take my money from him and head off home to sleep. But as you know, things don't always go as planned. :D

We hung out, chatted and joked around as usual. That was when he told me to crash with him. I headed back to my grandmother's place, grabbed my laptop and my stuff and went back over to meet him. We played Bingo and Pair Call with the rest of the family and I won and lost money. Pfft.

We only slept at around 6+. We ended the games at 5 but the both of us just continued chatting and stuff all the way till dawn.

Now, we're still hanging out and spending some much needed quality time as siblings. I still haven't showered yet by the way. Hehe...

P.S: Loving it. 4 more days :D

3:51 PM

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Today, I surprised Aliff. I bought a small Bang Deli's birthday cake for him and brought it to my studio. I collaborated with the rest of the gang, being Sam, Wyan, Qom, Hannah, Izzy and Rina to surprise him. The moment he entered the studio, I brought out the cake and we started singing him a birthday song. His facial expression was priceless. He looked like he was damn touched and he kept on saying 'sial ar korg. Aku shy sak.' Haha!

*Aliff, hope you enjoyed it. It may not be much but I hope that you did at least enjoy and savour it. You're a special friend to me, bro, and I never ever regretted building a close and tight-knit friendship with you. I love you!

I didn't do much this past week. Tuesday had no school so I simply slacked at home, doing nothing.

Wednesday, after school, I had a dance session with Az and Cynthia to rehearse for our performance next week. After that, I rushed down to Pasir Ris to help coach Adek Afiq in his Science, as he was sitting for his practical today.

Today, slacked in school with the usuals. Had another dance session with Az and Cynthia. We learnt the choreography to Beat It today(yesterday was Buttons). Met Tun, Sue, Kaz, Roy, Sya and Fendi at Yishun and slacked at Roy's place and had our dinner there.

Oh ya! I had my FDS critique session today. I was damn nervous I tell you! Elaine actually told me that she could see that I had put in a lot more effort in my works for term 2 and that, I had come a very long way since Brickboy. Although my workmanship still lacks in certain aspects(though I have no idea which aspects she's actually talking about), she told me that somehow, somewhere, something along the way must have clicked in my mind and hit me hard and from there on, I began to make leaps and bounds and improve tremendously. She even told me that she was proud of me and that I should be proud of myself too! WOO! This is coming from the strictest mofo lecturer, who can be reasonable and laid back but is damn serious when it comes down to works mind you. YAY!

I'm so damn shagged and I've still got my effing HTI dossier to do. *GROANS* Nevermind. I'll finish it up tomorrow, since I'm not schooling tomorrow and print it out in school on Monday, when I drop by SP to submit my portfolio, which is already done and binded as of yesterday.

Pictures for Aliff's birthday surprise has already been uploaded on my Facebook. Check it out if you wanna.

Blogger's being such a fucking pain. I can't color or personalise my posts as usual. Screw you blogger creators!

P.S: 7 more days. :D

9:16 PM

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YAY! Blogger is finally OK! After such a long time...Pfft!

Anyways, GC submission was today. No wait. It's after 12 midnight already right? Jyeah ok. So it was yesterday. Not schooling tomorrow cuz OC finally ended and as for VAS tomorrow, why would I wanna waste my transportation money travelling all the way to SP @ Dover and waste 3 hours of my time sitting in class doing absolutely NOTHING when I've already completed my assignments for VAS right? I'm left with a little bit of slides to add in for my portfolio(GC Photography & pictures of BDC sketchbook and workbook) and my HTI Dossier before I'm finally done!

Ok. Fuck that school shit for now. Eagerly anticipating for the masquerade party at school next Thurs. I coped a mask, that resembled the Phantom of The Opera from Art Friend. Hehe. Feeling nervous but excited at the same time you know cuz I'm hosting the entire party and performing too!

Dala. Ohya.

ALIFF ZAIDI!!! HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!! Thanks a LOT for everything that you've done for me, like being there for me back then at Zouk during that shitty week. It's much appreciated. If you ever need a friend to talk to, I'm here aitz bro? I LOVE YOU A LOT BRO!!! ENJOY YOUR 18TH BIRTHDAY!! *winks*

P.S: Excited

12:35 AM

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Last night was freaking awesome. Tonned the entire night with Tun, Kaz, Sue, Aisya, Acap and Roy. We tonned at Pasir Ris Park. Chit-chatted, joked around, had fun basically and enjoyed each other's company.

Currently, I'm over at Farhan's place to help coach him in his Science. Going back home later on to do my portfolio and the dossier as those are my last 2 assignments that I need to finish up.

FDS - SUBMITTED
GC - DONE & AWAITING SUBMISSION ON MON
VAS - DONE & AWAITING SUBMISSION ON THURSDAY
HTI INTERIM - DONE. AWAITING PRINTING, BINDING & SUBMISSION ON WED
HTI DOSSIER - YET TO BE DONE
FDS PORTFOLIO - IN THE MIDST OF DOING

P.S: FREEDOM

9:34 PM

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I just wanna get this off my chest so please bear with me.

Lately, it seems that you're not doing your part as a friend, as a brother. Everytime you tell me stuff, like how your friend, whom I don't even know is having problems, or about your fear of how your MT O Level results would turn out or you considering joining Afiq's band, you unconsciously expect me to pay attention to you and to give you consoling words of comfort, even though most of the time, I barely know who you're talking about.

However, when it's my turn to like confide my fears in you or to share stuff with you, you always keep quiet and when I nudge you, you snap at me, telling me that you're busy reading the papers or STOMP or simply busy. To cap it off, just now when I told you about how my dance members are not committed to practice sessions for the performance at my school's party next 2 weeks, due to the submissions that are keeping them occupied, you simply kept quiet again as usual. When I said 'as usual u mls nk lyn', you could even said 'yea' and you immediately started telling me about you not being sure when the MT O Level results will be released and that you think you might get a C for it and indirectly, in a subconscious manner, you expect me to pay attention to all that you have to say while what I have to say is simply insignificant and you can't be bothered to listen.

I've gotten used to the fact that you simply can't be bothered to chat with me online no more, unlike last time and that, you always somehow or rather expect me to pay attention to everything that you've got to say while what I wanna tell you simply falls on intentional deaf ears. I may have gotten used to it but at times like now, for instance, it sucks ok. It hurts.

Whatever happened to the times back when we were extremely close to the extend that we hung out with each other like almost everyday? What happened to us being extremely close with each other, where we could easily share our fears, secrets and problems among us and pay attention to each other whenever one party is down, to the extend that a lot of people actually mistakenly thought that we were real siblings? Times have sure changed, haven't they?

P.S: Sometimes I wonder.

11:15 PM

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Last night was awesome! Initially, it was supposed to be just myself, Tun and my younger brother, Adek Afiq, to catch the fireworks display at Marina. Hussein and Aiman couldn't confirm yet and as for Fiqa, she would be late.

Bla3...

Adek Afiq called me up in the afternoon, telling me that Hussein and Aiman confirmed at the very last minute and that, they were on the way. Jun texted me, telling me that she wanted to tag along.

Bla3...

We met Jun at Marina. Walked around, window shopped, had our dinner at Qiji. Walked down to Lao Pa Sat to meet Fiqa(but stopped halfway through to catch the fireworks display). Supposed to sheesha but then, a new law has already been passed on to prevent underage smokers from being able to sheesha so that plan was scrapped and we proceeded to Mac at White Sands to hang out.

While we were adjusting our appearance in the toilet, Adek Afiq suddenly came up to me and said

Adek Afiq : "Nari gerek keper sak!"

Me: "Jyeah it was. :D"

We hugged and I thanked him for today.

Had our supper, played A Moment of Truth and basically chit chatted. What I really enjoyed most was spending time with the ones I loved, especially my younger brother, Afiq, and the bonding sessions that followed suit.

P.S: Thanks guys. I love you.

1:51 PM

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2 more weeks till submission mayhem starting from the 14th of August and running all the way down till the 26th of August. Lets see...

14th Aug: FDS Submission for Labyrinth, Tessellations & Ontography
17th Aug: GC Submission for Typography
19th Aug: HTI Interim Submission
20th Aug: VAS Submission for Silkscreen Portraits & T-Shirt Printing
24th Aug: Portfolio Submission
26th Aug: HTI Dossier Submission

Lately, I've been a workaholic. No. I'm still jobless. What I meant by workaholic was in terms of school. Common Foundation's drawing to an end and I actually feel saddened by this. I hated CF and I certainly felt that design wasn't my cup of tea but somehow, in Term 2, I began to enjoy it tremendously. I haven't been hanging out with my usual lovelies in school, my close S.C pals or my keconess Block Merah clique cuz I've been focusing on my school assignments. Finish them up and produce fine, quality work and BOOM!! Time to kick back, relax and enjoy baby!

As for today, I finally met up with my younger brother, Afiq and Hussein! I missed the both of them, especially Afiq. Hahaha! We didn't really talk much as usual cuz Afiq just woke up from his short nap whereas I was extremely shagged from school.

Ok people! Time to go! Doing my 3D tessellation!

P.S: Chiong then party

11:39 PM

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Ok. Pull myself together. It's been 2 days since that scathing incident on MSN and it's still fresh on my mind. Maybe I need more time. The only person whom I related this incident to was my younger brother, Afiq. He told me to not think too much about it although it hurts and in many ways, I'm trying to distract myself. Keep myself occupied with assignments, watching endless reruns of Charmed but that's not working.

I see the distance widening between us. I think it's my bad actually, as I've been too caught up with schoolwork and stuff.

There are certain episodes in Charmed, where it actually somehow or rather, relates and reminded me back of that incident.

Nevermind. Screw you Bal! Wake up! 2 more weeks till crit week and you've got a lot more things to do than to think about something which was beyond your control! FOCUS! F-O-C-U-S!

P.S: Was it hard?

12:45 PM

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Things have been different as of late. Cracks are appearing here and there. I hate it when cracks start to form. It's the beginning of the end. Maybe it's my fault for putting myself in the line of fire.

A friend of mine posed this question to me earlier on, to which I'm still pondering over. I'm not gonna mention names so I'm using A and B.

'If A replies B 'me too' to B telling A that B loves A, then what does A mean by 'me too' in the first place?'

Me too as in I love you too? Or me too as in I feel the same way? Or me too as in yeah ok? In the first place, why is it so hard now for A to tell B directly that A loves B too when A was able to do so before? They've been very close pals since last year to the extend that both A and B are like siblings. Previously from the end of last year till early this year, A always found it easy to tell B that A loves B, regardless of whether it's A's own initiative to tell B that or whether it's simply a reply to B telling A that B loves A. Now, it's different. A either simply replies 'you too' or 'me too' or A ignores B totally whenever B tells A that B loves A.

Damn you friend! You got me all muddled up here. Pfft.

P.S: Unappreciated

11:08 PM

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Cracks. That's what I would call it. Figure out what that means.

I've got no idea how I'm supposed to start with my 3D tessellation! HELP!

P.S: Cracks. Hate that.

5:11 PM