Beauty & The Beast

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Somehow, seeing my loved ones faces light up with happiness is enough to make me smile. I don't why I'm being so random but I guess it was just a fleeting thought that came across my mind when I woke up this afternoon and since then, I'm unable to stop thinking about it.

Seeing my best friend whooping with joy upon receiving the birthday present that she wanted so much put a smile on my face. Seeing 1 of my younger brother's face breaking out into a smile when I gave him a birthday present made me smile as well. Seeing another 1 of my younger brother's face lighting up all cuz he enjoyed the outing with me and my close friends made me grin from ear to ear.

I know I tend to get mushy and stuff when it comes to talking about my closest circle of friends, who mean the world to me. Haha. That's just me I guess. All part and parcel of being who I am everyday for the rest of my life.

Ok. Now back to business. Tons of assignments to do, going out later, my older sister's wedding tomorrow. And she's expecting a wedding gift from me when I specifically told her that I'm broke. Pfft. Sisters. *Rolls eyes*

P.S: :)

1:14 PM

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I MISS MY SD CLIQUE! 2 MORE WEEKS BEFORE I CAN SEE THEM!

P.S: Hate this MC. Feel like going school tomorrow.

2:58 PM

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This 2 weeks of MC shit is really not good for me. Cuz even though I'm given an extension on my current assignments, the shit is I have absolutely no idea where to go about even STARTING on my assignment, let alone finish it up and submit it on time. I asked Min to explain the assignments to me in a very detailed manner and I like quadruple-checked everything with her just to ensure that I understand everything but I'm still like confused. YONG SHENQ! I need you! Yong Shenq's the best lecturer in my opinion cuz if you don't understand something and you approach him, he will actually sit down with you and explain every single thing about the God-Damn assignment to you in detail but as simply as he can as possible while still getting the point across until that small lil light bulb over your head lights up and glows brightly.

~Thanks aLOT Min for your help. Sorry if I bugged you.

1 of my assignments is due in 2 weeks and I'm on MC for around that same period of time. -.- I'll be given an extension but still. I would much rather finish up my current assignments NOW than put it off until I'm back in school, where even MORE assignments will be piled on my lap. That is when I will DIE. Why? Cuz I have to finish up these 2 weeks worth of assignments AND finish up my 'welcome-back-to-school-presents' AND submit ALL of them ON TIME. Sheesh.

Ok2. Enough said. I'm off. Design school really got no life. No wonder all design students biological clock are screwed up, where in our world, night is day and day is still day and we survive on extremely short naps to and from school and what little sleep we can get at night.

P.S: Off to do assignments while away on MC

1:33 AM

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Hey. Sorry for the lack of updates. Reason being?

Well. Everyday after school, I rush back home to grab a quickie(SHOWER & DINNER, NOT SEX, you yellow-minded baffoons) before heading to the R.C at the back of my place to do my assignments till very late at night.

Anyways, school's been real awesome, what with being able to meet and hang out with my clique and new interesting modules. With the exception of Yong Shenq's IDC module. Not that it isn't fun cuz it really is fun but imagine having to draw like numerous circles for the entire 4 hours of of class?? Like Rina said. 'Yong Shenq, now I know why. You really got no life man draw so many circles everyday.' A big HAHAHA!

On the bright side, I'm beginning to love this optimistic perspective on life thing. Like what my brother told me, sometimes, in life, shit happens, and I just have to learn to swallow it up and move on cuz there are truckloads of people that I can count on.

~Adek, if you're reading this, do tag me. I love you. :)

Oh jyeah, Russian Roulette is the shit. :)

P.S: SD = NO LIFE

2:15 PM

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Starting from today onwards, I'm no longer gonna be affected by what I found out last Sunday. I'm no longer gonna be hurt nor feel hurt nor bring myself down just because of those shitty truths that were revealed. Guess Tun, Zakk, Adek Afiq and Adek Khairil were right. I shouldn't think too much about that matter anymore or rather, I should totally just ignore that matter and drop it altogether cuz it's useless for me to continuously think about it and get hurt by it.

I just realised that it's because of that matter that my relationships with my loved ones, being my bros and my close friends, are affected. I'm sorry for that. I won't let that happen again. I promise.

Today will be a brand new day. A fresh new start. Fuck that shit. Throw away the past. Look forward to the future.

P.S: 180 degree change

4:31 PM

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Today was my first day as an Interior Design student at SP. It was awesome. The first lesson was fun and innovative. The lecturers were the strong hardy ones like before. It was great to be able to see, meet, chat and hang out with my S.D and GYLC clique after having not seen them for so long. I really missed them loads.

Anyways, I'm still reeling from the aftershocks of what Jun told me yesterday. Yes, admittedly, I was feeling confused and hurt by what she told me yesterday and I feel that I'm the one to blame for what happened to her yesterday. Something which I will not state on my blog and which only those closest to me knows cuz it's far too personal. Although she told me outright that I'm not to be blamed at all and that I never did anything wrong, I still feel guilty. I still feel hurt. I still feel confused.

I put on a facade while I was at school. I was genuinely happy to see my close friends in school again after such a long time cuz of the fact that I missed them so much. But for the rest of the times, when I was loud and outgoing and just joked around and stuff, I simply put on a strong front and tried to be myself and pretended to be happy just to shelve away my feelings of sadness. I didn't want it to show through my words, expressions and actions.

Yes. Both my brothers and Zakk told me that what I found out yesterday wasn't worth my tears and that, I still had them and many other close friends out there, who are more than willing to accept me for who I am. Yes. I know that. But still, the undeniable fact is there.

It sucks. I thought that those days were long gone and over and done with but apparently, they've returned with a vengeance. I hate being put through all this.

7:47 PM

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Well. Happy birthday to me. Haha! I know it seems pretty lame but hey! That'll have to do. Besides, I wasn't really looking forward to my birthday this year and I even forgot that today was my birthday until Adek Afiq reminded me yesterday while we were bussing our asses down to Burger King at White Sands Shopping Centre. I'm serious. I've been so busy this entire week that I actually forgot the dates and all I could think about was 'Ok. Tomorrow's Wednesday, which means that the SD & GYLC clique will be going jalan raya.' or 'Ok. Today's Thursday and I'm supposed to accompany Ridzwan'. Days appeared magically in my mind while shoving the dates out at the same time. Ok. Am I making any sense here? If I don't, then forget it cuz I'm not gonna ask your feeble minds to comprehend what I just said.

~Adek Afiq, thanks bro!

On the plus side, I would like to thank the following people for wishing me a happy birthday. Jyeah. I know. I can just say 'THANKS EVERYONE' but I would much rather list down the names you know? It's like so BOOMS. *Imitates Ris Low* Gives it a more personal touch.

Beloved Ppl:
Wei Xiang, Rina, Ash SMA, Zakk, Adek Afiq, Qom, Tun, Ella, Sam, Cynthia, Rye, Azlina, Cik Tah, Adek Khairil

Friends :) :
Amanda, K.Y, Khairil SMA, Adi, Syai, Gerald, Keenan, Izzy, Kabin, Zach, Huda, Marcia, Fikry, Dani, Rahmat, Sunil, Hafiz, Dylan

Anyway, school is starting in like 2 days time and I just received an e-mail from Iain. School's starting at 8 on Monday, NOT 9. I'm like WTF?! On the bright side, DID students are only schooling on Mondays, Tuesdays and Thursdays. For my class that is.

Take that ELLA! HAHAHAHAHA!

Here's a BIMBO quote to end this post.

'When I'm feeling NAUGHTY, I would wear something RAD and LAOD. Something, you know.....
BOOMS!'

HAHAHA!

P.S: Booms. :)

1:24 PM

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Hey readers! Sorry for the lack of updates. Been busy lately.

Anyways, cliff notes version of my activites for this week.

Monday: Slacked at Zakk's place with Cynthia.

Tuesday: Slacked with Tun and Sue.

Now's the exciting part. Wednesday, I went jalan raya with the SD & GYLC Clique! Although some of them couldn't make it and Ash, Sufea, Izdihar and Ridzuan had to leave early, it was a very enjoyable outing overall. I'm loving them all. :)

Lets see. Sam, Zakk, Sya, Fah, Cynthia, Sufea, Felicia, Fiany, Syai, Qom, Rahmat, Myself, Ridzuan, Izdihar, Aliff, Ash and Zach were the ones who attended the raya outing.

For today, I simply accompanied Ridzuan to get his hair dye/bleach and proceeded to his place to help him dye his hair and slack at the same time.

P.S: More SD & GYLC Clique outings please. :)

10:16 PM

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Oh God! The bus hasn't even been booked yet and it's the cheapest by far! $30 per hour!

Now, I'm actually having second thoughts as to whether I wanna book the bus. Everyone's like being ridiculous can? Some still can't confirm whether they'll be tagging along, some say they can't make it, some will only follow if their closest friends tag along, otherwise they won't go at all.

It's like I'm trying so hard to plan this outing together with some of my closest friends and ensure that it goes smoothly and that, it'll be a success and yet, I get these kinda replies. Sheesh.

Anyway, the reason why I might not be booking the bus is cuz alot of people have yet to confirm whether they're tagging along or no. So it would be like ridiculous to rent a bus with very little people going. At the same time, I'm afraid that if I don't rent the bus and ALOT of people are tagging along, then it would be a hassle to travel via public transport.

Ah forget it. I'll find a way somehow. I always do. No point stressing myself out over things I have absolutely no control over.

So lets see. For the weekend, I crashed over with Adek Khairil to celebrate his birthday last Saturday. Yesterday, I went to Rina's open house.

P.S: I'll find a way out. :)

12:11 PM

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Hey all. Sorry for the lack of updates the past few days. Anyway, the past 3 days have been pretty much dull. All I've been doing was just slacking with Adek Khairil and gang on Monday, since they crashed over at my place on Sunday night, and Wednesday and filming in school on Tuesday. I have my last day of filming in school again tomorrow and I would much rather get it over and done with ASAP cuz it's starting to get really old really quickly.

Anyway, Farhan Shah got eliminated from Singapore Idol today. Honestly, after all the hype and heavy adverts on how talented this year's batch of contestants are and how things are changing in Idol by introducing Hady Mirza as the co-host and all that crap, I'm honestly disappointed. Why?

For starters. what's with opening the voting lines like wayyyy before the show has even started? I mean, they open up the voting lines on Wednesday AFTERNOON when firstly, the haven't even heard the contestants' performance yet and secondly, the show starts at 8 PM on the same night. Doesn't this prove that this current season of Idol is focusing more on LOOKS and CHARMS rather than pure, raw talent? Looks can be groomed on later on but RAW TALENT is what this show should be all about and sadly, almost all the contestants are like lacking in that particular department. Announcing the results on the same night at 10pm is like encouraging Singaporeans to vote for the hottest and cutest guy or the prettiest bimbotic girl. Pfft. Typical Singaporeans. No wonder Singapore can never go far in the media industry. Like sending Fann Wong, who can't even SPEAK PROPER ENGLISH, let alone UNDERSTAND IT, to Hollywood to star in a huge blockbuster movie, alongside Jackie Chan and Chris Tucker. And getting Phua Chu Kang aka Gurmit Singh to represent Singapore when the American Amazing Race contestants dropped by Singapore as a stop on their leg of the race. Embarrassing or embarrassing? Pfft. -.-

Wow! I'm rambling on about stuff which happened a long time ago. But hey! It just suddenly came to mind so I would much rather thrash it all out than keep it all in. And allowing RIS LOW to be crowned as Miss Singapore Universe 2009 when her diction is so bad that even my grandmother can pronounce complicated words BETTER than her when she's NOT using her false teeth at times is like the icing on the cake. She can't even SPEAK PROPER ENGLISH for God's sake and she's so...BIMBOTIC. Luckily, she isn't representing Singapore in the Miss Universe pageant, otherwise Singapore would be scrapped off the world map entirely. Booms. Get it? *Flashes the middle finger in Ris Bimbotic Low's face*

And wow! In the blink of an eye, 9 months has already passed and my younger brother's birthday is like this coming Saturday and my birthday is coming up next week. School holidays are nearly over. A lot of shit has happened this year. That and beautiful, bittersweet memories all snowballed into one. I won't go into details as some of it are very personal.

Moving on. Err. I think I'll end here for now.

P.S: Bittersweet

11:36 PM

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You know the yucky feeling you get when you're suffering from insomnia? Jyeah. That's right. I had it last Thursday and yesterday. I couldn't sleep till 7 this morning even though I was extremely shagged from the FCX raya outing yesterday.

The raya outing was enjoyable to say the least. Bonding sessions and everything.

It sucks when you're having insomnia cuz it's like your whole body is aching but your eyes and mind are fully awake. I really gotta get rid of this insomnia cuz school's starting soon.

P.S: Feels like insomnia.

1:42 PM

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Yesterday, I went jalan raye with the 9 Fuckers & Co clique. It was enjoyable and tremendously fun! I kept quiet in the beginning part of the journey cuz I was honestly damn sleepy. I only slept at 4am that morning and woke up at around 8am. So you can understand how I felt.

Anyways, I won't go into details cuz it'll be a long draggy post if that were to happen and moreover, I'm lazy to go into details. However, the bestest part of the outing had to be at Faris's house, where Ray, Alep and Faris took it in turns to play the songs they knew on Faris's guitar and all of us started singing along to their chords, like Knocks You Down, Belaian Jiwa, Lucky and more. :)

I'm just full of smiles. I love those buggers man. :)

The weekend will be extremely busy for me cuz I've got an open house and 1 more raye outing to attend.

P.S: Enjoyable.

12:57 PM

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I'm just not in the mood right now. All I can say is I just got back home from filming like an hour ago. The past 3 days were spent slacking at Zakk's place, which was what I really needed. Take a break from all my worries and shits and just let loose and have fun.

~Zakk. Thanks for inviting us over to your crib to hang. I really appreciate that. I needed that actually. Needed to take a break from everything that's been bugging me lately, from my family troubles with my dad to me worrying about you know who. I didn't wanna tell anyone about what I was going through cuz I wanted to put up a strong front. Smile and laugh all my sorrows away. I'm weak when it comes to facing these kinda shit. I don't want to let anyone know about the shit I was facing cuz I didn't wanna trouble or worry anyone. Thanks too for allowing me to rant on MSN. :)

~Qom, thanks aLOT for your concern when you texted me just now, asking me what happened and thanks too for listening. You're like a younger brother to me bro. :)

~Felicia and Fikry, thanks you guys for your concern. :)

~Rina, for now, I will find out his side of the story. And btw, about both my shoutouts on FB as well as my MSN, those are referring to HIM who bugged your sis and all the other shit, NOT you. So don't get the wrong idea ok? I mean it took me months to mend and repair our broken close friendship ever since we broke up and I'm not gonna let that idiot come along and cause us to clash AGAIN all cuz he bugged and irritated the crap out of your sis.

For now, I just need a break.

P.S: You never learn don't you?

12:57 AM