Beauty & The Beast

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Ok. Call me mad or whatever. Yeah, I know. My third post of the day cuz I'm damn freaking bored.

I miss my bro. Worried about how Jun is doing right now. Wondering whether she's ok. After what happened yesterday. Wondering whether Tun is still worried about that incident this morning or whether she's back to her happy-go-lucky self. I miss my bro. Wait. I just said that earlier on, didn't I?

Well yeah. Its been a long time since I spent time with him as we've been too pre-occupied with school, assignments and for his case, mid year exams and for my case, work.

Meeting Afiq tomorrow(I think) to coach him for his Chemistry.

Now, I'm off to shower. Bye!

9:40 PM

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Sometimes, I just don't get you. It's like you take me as someone who means nothing at all to you. It's either you're oblivious to the fact that I care a lot about you or you simply can't be bothered.

Fine. I know I'm irritating cuz of the fact that I tend to like talk to you or contact you at the wrong time. But if you were in my shoes, you would understand how I'm feeling. The feeling you get when you miss someone cuz you haven't seen or spent time with that person for a long time. The feeling you get when the person doesn't even appreciate you being there for them or the things you do and sacrificed for them.

You know what? Nevermind.

Labels: Guess I have to get used to this after all.

4:17 PM

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Ok. Now I'm in class, waiting for my name to be called to submit my Brick Boy Assignment. I think I'll fail this assignment cuz of the fact that all 3 of my Brick Boy models are about as good as the crap that comes out from our bodies through our asses. At the same time, I'm wondering. How both my brothers are faring and doing for their papers today cuz both of them are sitting for their English and Mother Tongue Paper 1 today.

Nah. I really shouldn't be worried that much. Cuz I have faith in the both of them and I know for sure that they'll definitely do well for their English and Mother Tongue Paper 1 today due to the fact that their command of English and Malay are damn good.

Still, I wish the both of them all the best.

P.S: I love you both to death. :)

Labels: All the best and good luck

9:05 AM

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Just came back home from my typhoid vacination at Raffles Medical Clinic at Terminal 3. I was damn disappointed with this doctor, whose name I shall not mention here to spare him the EMBARRASSMENT!

He was damn bloody rude. Firstly, when Tun, Jonie and I re-entered the clinic, he told us off in a very rude manner:

"If you want to re-enter the clinic, we have to retake your temperature alright! So please!".

We were shocked but we complied. The final straw came when he told Shamira to pay for the consultation, despite the fact that firstly, Shamira didn't even WANT to be consulted in the first place and she was forced to be consulted simply cuz of her high temperature of 37.9 and secondly, she only came to the clinic to get her typhoid vacination. When she told him that she had no money to pay for the consultation, he actually had the audacity to tell her:

"Your friends outside what. So ask them to pay la!"

I was damn effing pissed! What kind of a doctor is this?! Raffles Medical Clinic is supposed to be a prestigious and well-known private medical centre and yet, I get this kind of LANGUAGE and TONE coming from a RAFFLES DOCTOR, who was supposed to be an EDUCATED PROFESSIONAL?!!

Labels: Call yourself a professional and yet you're so damn rude

12:25 AM

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Apparently, some stupid arses just don't understand simple English. They somehow resemble a housefly.

WHY DO I SAY THAT?

Hmm..Well. That's because the more you SHOO them AWAY, the more they COME BACK! They don't have a brain to call their own, which is why they DON'T understand the meaning of the word SHOO. That's the typical behaviour of houseflies and apparently, some people best resemble it cuz of the fact that they keep on COMING BACK everytime they are SHOOED AWAY.

When they are at the losing end, they can only come back with ONE word cuz they've got nothing better to say. What an EFFING LOSER! I dared you to use your own bloody name, which your parents painstakingly racked their brains to christen you with but you still come back with that lame-O-pathetic excuse for a cowardly hate tagger's name being 'Human'. Ya. Everyone knows you're a human being, NOT a DOG, otherwise how would you be able to hate tag me right? Dogs don't use computers you know cuz they don't even know how to in the first place.

I know you want the WHOLE DAMN WORLD to know that you HATE me but guess what dear? NO ONE even GIVES A DAMN! Everyone hates someone or another in this world so even if you wanna make your views heard on my blog about how GAY, SISSY and BAPOK I am, or how you continuously rant about how much you HATE me, nobody even bothers or cares. Cuz it's been a period of time since you started hate-tagging me.

Besides, we broke up like what? YEARS AGO! All this while you've been keeping mum and silencing yourself so why did you suddenly appear back in my life, start hate tagging me, trying to hit on everything I post on MY blog, telling everyone you HATE me when NO ONE CARES in the first place and even attempting to intefere in my life by telling me what I can and can't do? I distinctly recall you mentioning in one of your hate tags towards me that 'u're right. I shldn't interfere in ur life'. What you're doing right now is totally contradicting what you said. How ironic. And I also remember you saying 'Oh please, now I'm happier with my...which i dnt have to tell you'. If you're happier with your current stead, then get a move on with life betch and stop harrassing me. You say you're happier with whoever you are right now, yet you still visit my blog on a daily basis to check out what I've been doing with my life, whom I'm attached with right now and taking note of every single little detail of my life and doing the most CHILDISH, IMMATURE, IMBECILE manner of composing your thoughts of what you wanna hit me with and then let it out by HATE TAGGING ME. Come on. Get a life of your own man. Seriously. So what does this tell us people? That she still wanna interfere in my life, despite the fact that we BROKE UP YEARS AGO AND YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME RIGHT NOW IN THE FIRST PLACE BIATCH! Please get this into that thick numbskull of yours. Ohya. I forgot. You can't. Cuz it's stuffed with too much AIR, making you a dumb AIRHEAD. And if you're happier with your current stead or whoever it is you're attached with right now, why come back into my life and try to interfere and take note of everything I say and do everyday on my blog? Stupid isn't it how some people say that they wouldn't interfere in other people's lives, yet they still harrass the other people by constantly trying to butt in their lives? Do you even know the MEANING of the word INTERFERE? I think you don't, which is why you continuously harrass me by butting in my life and commenting on every single thing I post on my blog. I suggest you look up the word 'Interfere' on Wikipedia. That's a good website...FOR IDIOTS AND SCUMS WHO DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THE WORDS THEY USE!

Noticed that I didn't ban you this time round? The reason is simple. I can't be bothered cuz you would always find a way to go onto my blog and try to make your SICKENING, UNIMPORTANT, PITIFUL woes and views heard cuz apparently, no one would listen to you when you tell them face-to-face about how much you hate me. So keep hate-tagging me all you like cuz the more you do so, the stronger it proves my point. That you've got absolutely NO LIFE TO CALL YOUR OWN, you find your life actually WORTH LIVING to hate tag me cuz that's the only thing that you're OBSSESSED with right now that makes your life actually WORTH IT, otherwise it would mean NOTHING AT ALL TO YOU and that you simply LOVE TO INTERFERE SO MUCH IN OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES cuz apparently, YOUR LIFE ISN'T PERFECT ENOUGH FOR YOU as it's full of nothing but CRAP!

So go ahead. Hate tag me all you like cuz this is the last time that I'm gonna pay attention to a seriously pathetic, no-lifer, imbecile, dumb-stupid-jackass-who-doesn't-even-understand-the-meanings-of-the-words-you-use, uneducated, irritating bitch like you. Oh and girl. Next time round when you hate tag, PLEASE by all means....USE YOUR REAL NAME! I dare you to let the visitors of my blog and the whole world know your real, true, actual identity and who you really are. Saves us the trouble of trying to second-guess who you are.

P.S: I dare you.

11:41 AM

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Hey3...Currently, I'm busy drawing and cutting out the template for my class assignment, which is due this coming Monday afternoon at 2pm. Late submission equates to a BIG FAT ZERO! Don't even know how I'm gonna be able to finish it up, seeing as I'm working at night on both tomorrow and Sunday. Guess I have to stay up late tonight just to finish this assignment up. Damn these time constraints! Damn these extremely tight deadlines!

Anyways, I'm so missing a lot of people here. Most importantly, I miss my adek, Adek Khairil cuz its been like almost 2 weeks since I last hung out and spent time with him. I miss my 2 besties too, being Tun and Jun(that rhymes). I haven't hung out with the both of them for so long! I miss my bro, Adek Dahnial and my cousin, Khaleed cuz we haven't seen or contacted each other since the chalet and Speech Day respectively. I miss Syaqeeq too cuz it's been so long since I met that jackass. I miss a whole lot of other people too, like my close East View pals and others as well, but listing them down individually would make this post extremely draggy.

Guess I'll stop here.

I miss you guys...Love you guys tremendously... :)

11:11 PM

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Today marks the fourth day of school at SP and I'm already beginning to feel the strain and pressure due to loads of assignments, projects and homeworks that HAS TO BE SUBMITTED ON TIME!

I was so looking forward to entering Poly but when I've already entered it, it doesn't seem to be all fun and games though. There's loads of stuff to do and assignments to complete and projects to finish up and moreover, I'm a Design Student so I gotta be prepared for sleepless nights, according to my seniors.

I've still got to finish drawing up, cutting, gluing and assembling my template for a mock up model to be submitted on this coming Monday. Don't know how I'm gonna accomplish that, seeing that I end school at 6 tomorrow and I'm working the night shift this coming weekend.

10:53 PM

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It's only the second day of poly and already, I've got a mini-project due on Thursday and a lot of assignments and homeworks to finish up. In my course there are NO exams, but assignments, projects and homeworks are taking its place and they will all be graded and will determine our end-of-year results.

Anyways, I chatted with Adek Khairil on the phone just now and I'm glad that he's feeling better today than he did yesterday cuz he had a rough day yesterday. We did some catching up and I finally told him that I was attached and he was asking me "Who? Sape? Sape?? Sape???". We might be meeting up this Saturday, InsyaAllah. If not, we're meeting up next Wednesday cuz I might be fetching him home frm NCD, InsyaAllah. I'm really looking forward to meeting up with him cuz we've got a lot of catching up to do and honestly, I really miss that younger brother of mine so much cuz we haven't spent time with each other for so long! I miss you adek!!

Now, I'm currently finishing up my Brick Boy Model project while waiting for Afiq's call.

*To Ridzuan, thanks a lot for your help yesterday. I really appreciate it loads bro.

*To passey-by, thanks for your comforting words of advice. I may not know who you are but thanks all the same.

*To my bro, Afiq, thanks for always being there for me and for encouraging me all the time to stay strong. I really appreciate it bro and I'm thankful that I've got a brother like you around. I love you bro!

*To Adek Khairil, I really miss you bro. Hope to see you soon yaw! I love you!

10:03 PM

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I'm not in a mood. I feel so down and so God Damn effing guilty..I hate myself...I'm so sorry.

9:59 AM

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Why can't 2008 just come back? I feel like reliving 2008 all over again cuz it was the bestest ever year for me.

2009 is starting to feel like crap what with one thing after another. My dad wasn't even confident that I could pass poly, thinking that I was doomed to fail YET AGAIN as he perceives me as NOTHING but a FAILURE. I'm worried about my younger brother, Adek Khairil, cuz he's sitting for his Os this year and I don't want him to end up taking the same road that I did back in 2007 when I first failed my Os. I don't even get appreciated for what I did for the ones I love. I fought with my grandmother a couple of times simply cuz she has that ANNOYING habit of venting out her anger and frustrations on me whenever she's pissed off with someoneelse. People's first impressions of me as either a 'MAT' or a 'GAY' really hurts A LOT although I don't really show it.

Life is like a roller coaster. It has its ups and downs. I hate it when I'm feeling down like this cuz I would rant and rant and rant until I'm sick and tired of myself. Sometimes, I feel like I don't even matter in anyone's life at all cuz of the way I'm being treated by them. What's the point of loving and caring so much for the ones you love and sacrificing a lot for them but they don't even appreciate a single bit of what you did? Sometimes. I feel like running away from it all or even better. Just ending my life but that would be a stupid thing to do.

Yeah. I know. I'm irritating. I'm a pathetic excuse for a human being. I'm a useless asshole. The biggest SON OF A BITCH you've ever laid eyes on. But don't you know how much it actually HURTS when people judge you by the book and immediately label you as 'GAY' or 'MAT' without even getting a chance to know you better??? Don't you know how it actually SUCKS to know that your own DAD doesn't even have enough confidence in you to be able to pass POLY but instead, brings you down with his words???

I hate it! I just hate it!

*To Afiq, thanks a MILLION for always being there for me, for your comforting words, your care and concern and your advice. I really appreciate everything that you've done for me. I LOVE YOU BRO!!

11:06 PM

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Hey yall! Sorry I haven't been blogging for the past 4 days but I was extremely busy with the Orientation Week and my Speech Day back at East View that I was too shagged to blog by the time I arrived home.

Anyway, last Thursday night, SP held a FRESHMEN ORIENTATION PARTY exclusively for the FRESHMEN. It started off with a rock gig, followed by some Hip Hop Dance performances and it was all emceed by none other than Sheikh Haikal! But what I was really itching for was for the dancefloor to start and start it did at 7!

The starting songs were a bit dull and out of this world, as I've never even heard of them before. But slowly but surely, familiar songs began to blast out from the speakers, like Rihanna's 'Please Don't Stop The Music' and 'Disturbia', Lady GaGa's 'Just Dance', Daddy Yankee's 'Lo Que Paso Paso', 'Gasolina' and 'El Impacto', Sean Paul's 'Like Glue', PussyCat Dolls 'When I Grow Up', Beyonce's 'Single Ladies', Craig David's 'Insomnia', Akon Ft Kardinal Offishall's 'Dangerous' and 'Beautiful', and lots more. The most popular songs that really got the crowd SCREAMING were Just Dance, Please Don't Stop The Music and Disturbia.

Basically, I unleashed my party animal and danced and grinded like there was no tomorrow! We formed a circle and I did my thing in the middle. Someone dared me to go up on stage and dance, which I willingly did without feeling embarrassed even once. Cuz after all, it IS a PARTY, where you are supposed to just LET YOUR HAIR DOWN and HAVE FUN!!

Made A LOT OF NEW FRIENDS at the PARTAY! We danced together and I was like a PARTY ANIMAL that was just RELEASED FROM THE CAGE! I couldn't stop dancing and I enjoyed myself TREMENDOUSLY!!!! Alep, Ridzuan, Qomarul, Rina, Raihanah, Zakiah, Azlina, Sha and myself included were all having so much fun dancing together!

Anyways,just last night was East View's Speech Day, which I attended as I was a prize winner. It was...Slightly better as compared to the previous years' Speech Day. There were no dance performances, just some freestyle drills by the Uniformed Groups and a Fun & Fitness performances by the respective Sports CCAs. Nice stunts, Fadz!

Hung out with Nizam after that all the way till 10, before I headed back home, where I fell asleep until now.

11:32 AM

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Today, I'm pretty much shagged. Yea, admittedly, I did almost nothing else cuz while the rest of my group were busy painting the murals on the walls, the smokers(Myself included) willed our time away smoking, slacking and talking crap.

After the orientation, I went to eat at FC4 with Rina and Zakiah. Went back home where I slept in the MRT throughout the entire journey.

Ohya.

To Human:

It's MY freaking problem regarding whatever I wanna post on MY blog, like smoker's bond and the closeness of my relationships with my close friends and bros. We BROKE UP A LONG TIME AGO so WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT WHAT I POST ON MY FUCKING BLOG WHEN IT'S NONE OF YOUR MOTHER FUCKING BUSINESS BIATCH?!! You said 'Who want to be your girl pn?'. I reply: I've already FOUND someoneelse who is FAR BETTER than you and who is MORE UNDERSTANDING! You're calling me a GAY and a SISSY? Why, THANK YOU SO MUCH! I appreciate your comments! FYI, I don't even give a damn piece of SHIT about what you or others out there have to think or say about me cuz it's MY LIFE and it's how I WANNA LIVE MY LIFE THAT MATTERS! Now why don't you just be a good girl....AND SCRAM FROM MY BLOG BIATCH cuz YOU'RE SO NOT WELCOME!!

8:21 PM

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Hey all! That's right. I'm shagged after my first day of orientation at Singapore Poly today. It started at 8(but I had to wake up at 6 to shower and get ready and all that shit) and only ended around 4.30 to 5.

We started off with some lame ice-breaker games, like 'Big Fish Small Fish', 'Name Games' and all that. We had our lunch at aroound 11.15 and it was a 3 HOUR LONG LUNCH BREAK I tell you! I made loads of new friends but bonded with some as they, like me, were smokers and you know what people always say...

*SMOKERS BOND*

We smoked together and swapped BGR stories. After that, we met up with the rest of the group and chilled at Mobily in Campus while playing pool to kill the rest of the time.

Had a briefing by the Principal and the senior lecturers, which were a huge YAWN!

Headed off home after the orientation was over! Can't believe that I slept from Dover all the way till Tampines on the journey home.

P.S : Don't you even care?

9:42 PM

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I'm currently watching 'The Devil Wears Prada' on Channel 5.

*Anyways, bro, if you're reading this, I just wanna thank you for what you told me via MSN just now. I'm really glad that you feel that way. Just note that should anything happen to you, I'll be there for you immediately if you need me aitz bro? I love you.*

So my orientation starts tomorrow. I'm feeling nervous and excited at the same time. It's a new school environment after all.

9:02 PM

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Yesterday, I went to catch Fast and Furious 4 at Downtown East together with my adek, Adek Khairil, Jonie, Azhar, Syaqeeq, Hanis and Bob. The movie was freaking awesome! My adek and I seriously felt like watching it again.

Hung out at Stage after that, where Kak Rina and Abg Khairul joined us. After Adek Khairil, Kak Rina and Abg Khairul went back home, the rest of us transfered to Burger King where we were joined by Bob, Muhammad and Jazli.

I think that's it for now as I'm having a splitting headache.

P.S: I'm sorry...

8:08 PM

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Hey all. I just got back home from work. In a manner of speaking cuz I ended at 3.

Went down to Afghan after that to purchase my contacts cuz my current contacts has long since expired. Hahaha!

Anyways, yep! That's right! I'm FINALLY gonna ENROLL in my driving license tomorrow afternoon! HOORAY FOR ME! I waited for SO long for this but I just can't find the time to do so cuz I'm always either busy working or I'm flat broke. Since my pay just came in, I might as well finish up the stuff on my priority list, one of which includes enrolling in a driving license!

Oh yeah. Lets just recap on Cotton On yesterday cuz I was half asleep when I was blogging yesterday. As I was saying, Cotton On had a MAJOR SALE yesterday, where discounts were going up to 70%! There were these 2 t-shirts that I completely fell in love with, which cost $30 altogether. I also wanted to get the plain black, white and gray V-Necked T-Shirts, which cost about $5 each. But I had to exercise A LOT OF SELF-CONTROL cuz I can't afford to BLOW UP my entire salary on SHOPPING AGAIN, like what I did with my previous Dec, January and February salaries. I think the total amount I spent on shopping alone must have accumulated to nearly a $1000 cuz I tend to blow up hundreds of dollars on each shopping spree. So you see, I confess. I'm HEAVILY ADDICTED to shopping and I'm a SHOPAHOLIC! Haha!

P.S: You obviously don't realize how much it hurts me to know that you don't even appreciate what I do for you.

7:47 PM

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Hello people! Yeah, I know I already posted this morning before I went off to Lala-Land but I just came back home so I'm gonna post AGAIN.

Anyways, I went to Pasir Ris Interchange in the evening just now to top up my ez-link before heading to Downtown to meet Jazli to get my ciggs from him. Headed to TM to meet Saiful, Safwan and Ruzaini, then ate at Food Culture at CS before doing a spot of window shopping.

COTTON ON IS HAVING A MAJOR SALE!! DISCOUNTS ARE UP TO 70% OFF! There were these 2 printed t-shirts that I seriously wanted but I didn't buy them. I have to exercise some self-control ya know.

Hung out with Hanis after that at Central before heading home cuz I'm working tomorrow morning.

11:48 PM

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Yay! I managed to ton the whole entire night while playing my laptop and I didn't even fell asleep! Now, I'm watching Charmed online!

7:49 AM

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So today is the 6th of April. 1 more week before orientation begins and 2 more weeks before school OFFICIALLY starts. Boy! I can't wait for school to start because my life nowadays is pretty much DULL! That's right! DULL!

Cuz lately, what I've been doing for the past few months is W-O-R-K, H-A-N-G O-U-T and P-L-A-Y C-A-R-D-S. That's basically the daily routine of my life 24/7. Yeah, I know. I've been told off by a lot of my close friends for having no life but please. What else can I do? School hasn't even started yet so I can't distract myself with school work or projects. I can only occupy my free time with work and shopping occasionally?

Now, I'm in the midst of blogging while getting ready to go to work. Multi-tasking in other words. I gotta walk ALL the way to work cuz my ez-link card value is NADA. Can't wait for my freaking God-Damn pay to come in tomorrow night cuz I'm flat BROKE!

*Adek Khairil, if you're reading this, I know I still owe you that treat. Just hang in there yaw. I LOVE YOU ADEK!*

Hmm...I think that's it for now. Till the next time, CHEERS PEOPLE! :)

P.S: I miss you, bros, and I miss clubbing. Can't wait for this vacation to be WAYYYY OVER!

3:51 PM

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Yeah. I got back home like almost an hour and a half ago from work.

I was working til 3 this afternoon. While waiting for Tun, Shaz and Azhar to finish working, I was busy surfing the Net on my laptop at FCX. Shaz ended up going home early while Tun had to work fullshift to replace 1 of the staff. It was only Azhar and me who hung out and Bob joined us. All 3 of us were busy joking, teasing each other and laughing our asses off at everything. Had LOADS of fun with them. Oh ya. And Jun actually 'REDEEMED' me! Hahahaha! Sorry but it's an inside joke.

*Jun, if you're reading this, you know perfectly well what I'm talking about. REEDEEMED! HAHAHA!*

Looking forward to working tomorrow with Ali, Hanis, Azhar and Shaz! Yay!

P.S: I miss you bros!

10:31 PM

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Hey yaw! That's right! I finally rebooted my laptop and fixed up my Net and now, I'm back to blogging baby!!

Anyways, there's so much that I gotta tell you guys but I can't possibly do that cuz it would take up this entire page! So I'll only fill you in on the interesting events.

Went to Kak Rozy's open house last Sunday together with the FCX staff. We had loads of fun as we ate, smoked, joked and laughed our asses off and basically had fun!

Gave Kak Rozy a surprise birthday party last Wednesday as a belated birthday celebration as she took off on her birthday(Tuesday, 31st of March). We poured water and threw plain flour, chip spice and paprika all over her as she was blowing out the candles on her birthday cake! Haha! Poor Kak Rozy was covered in flour from her head all the down till her jeans.

Oh and fyi, Kak Rozy is my manager. 1 of the best things that happened to FCX ever since Anson left the place in disarray. I love you Kak Rozy!!

Was down with diarhoea and a high fever last Wednesday. It was so random cuz I was perfectly fine the day before.

3:13 PM