Beauty & The Beast

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Ok. So I'm in school right now. In class actually...With NO lecturers around cuz we're supposed to prepare our powerpoint slides for next week's presentation but we're all facebook-ing or blogging or playing games so jyeah. Get the picture.

Anyways, I've been sneezing non stop since this morning as I had the flu since last Saturday after spring cleaning my entire room. -.-

I miss my brothers. I miss my SC brothers. Haven't seen them for quite some time now. Hope to meet up soon.

P.S: *Ahchoo* Sniffles. -.-

1:35 PM

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Err..Lets see..Ok. I know what to blog about.

Guess what I saw today? A cat giving birth to 2 pre-mature babies that were still jelly-like, went completely still and died within a few minutes of birth. The cat was like crying out loud with tears in its eyes and it was forever approaching me or my brother just to seek our affection and pity cuz it was heart broken.

OMG. The sights and sounds of this drove me to tears. It was so pitiful and heart-wrenching.

Urgh! Enough. It's traumatizing.

P.S: God bless them.

11:17 PM

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I'm so damn shagged. Why? Cuz I've been doing household chores, cleaning my pigsty of a room and getting rid of all the dust bunnies that had accumulated over the months and now, thanks to them, I'm down with a headache and the flu. Damn you dust bunnies!

I think it's time to let go of the past. No point regretting what I've done, like the fact that I had a major tiff with my younger brother a few days back(things between us are much better now and hey, we're back to our usual joking around, teasing each other and loveable brotherly selves again), when I know that I have absolutely no control over it. Why fret over things which I can't control when I should be worrying about the things which I CAN control?

As far as relationship is concerned, I think I prefer my single life right now just the way I love it. It feels just like before. Freedom to say and do whatever I want without people getting green with envy just because I'm chatting with a close girl friend of mine(a pal, NOT a stead); able to be myself without having to pretend to be someone I'm not(so hypocritical and so typical of those guys out there who prioritise their girlfriends more than their friends. Puh lease. For God's sake, GET A LIFE); no more having to pay attention to all those sickening and irritating text messages, phone calls and MSN conversations about how much we love each other and all the other lovey dovey mushy mushy yucky crap(I'm not the romantic kinda guy who's a sweet-talker-mother-fucker); no more being forced to say I LOVE YOU DEAR and I MISS YOU HONEY. So jyeah. Being single is simply AWESOME.

P.S: Rocking the single life. :D

2:59 PM

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I'm so damn shagged. I just got back home from Chyenne's chalet this afternoon before rushing out again to do my Friday prayers with my brother, Adek Afiq, and heading down to Parkway Parade to meet a friend of mine.

The chalet yesterday was freaking awesome except for the part where I got extremely tipsy. Fuck. I hate that feeling. Urgh! Only Adek Khairil knows what happened when I was tipsy ehk dek ehk? *Winks and smiles* Spent some quality time with that beloved younger brother of mine.

Damn! I'm so sleepy. I didn't get enough sleep last night. I think I wanna go off to bed first. Nights yaw!

P.S: Hate this feeling. Urgh.

10:00 PM

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Oh God. I feel feverish and I hate falling sick. I'm supposed to go off to Chyenne's chalet later on and meet Adek Khairil there later but right now, I'm watching Red Thread and I'm flooded with fucking assignments. Lets see.

HTI Journal
ONOW Powerpoint slides
BDC workbook
FDS Photos

Urgh! Right now, I'm finishing up my HTI journal. Still left with the other 3 things. I had the flu just now but it subsided and now, this fever's coming on and fast. I wanna pop some Panadols to reduce the temperature but with the chalet later on, I doubt it's possible.

And what's even worse? I applied at Coffee Bean the other day and they still haven't called me up till now. And I'm going broke soon so yeah. I need the job. I need the cash.

I hate falling sick. I hate being broke. I hate being jobless. I hate school assignments. If you guys feel me, tag me. If you don't agree, well. That's your choice isn't it? I'm not gonna force you to see things my way.

P.S: Wrong timing.

8:01 PM

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Jyeah. I met up with Rina, Sam and Wx at Mac at White Sands today to start on our HTI powerpoint slides for our upcoming presentation when school reopens. We did the slides in the library. Shortly after, my adek, Afiq, came and join us. By then, the slides were done so we hung out at Mac again.

I walked back home with my adek and dropped him off before heading off to Tampines to hang out with Tun and gang.

P.S: Forget about yesterday's incident bro. Today's a brand new day. :D

11:40 PM

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Don't ever judge me based on first impressions alone. I may look like a typical bad boy and I may smoke but don't you ever dare judge me based on these 2 factors alone. Sometimes, I don't get why parents tend to ban their kids from hanging out with me just cuz I look like a matrep and I smoke and they are afraid that their so-called 'angelic' kids might be influenced by my devilish attitude when the sad truth is, their kids attitudes are far more worse than mine at times

*Korg pk anak2 korg pe perangai baek sgt per? Ey. Lao korg nk tau, anak2 korg pe perangai ag MENYUNDAL dari aku la sial.*

Just because their kids smoke, they start pinning the blame on me, saying that their kids were influenced by me to start smoking when truth is, their kids had started smoking a long time ago, even before I knew them.

Just because their parents doesn't like me simply cuz they thought that I'm a BAPOK for God Knows Why, they complain to the teachers, saying that they don't want their kids to mix around with me.

I ignore all of these crap that parents have about me. But after a while, it will eventually come back around to haunt me and eventually, it hurts you know that. Why judge me based on YOUR first impressions of me ALONE when you can actually take the time to know me and find out more about me?? Screw you!

Why I'm posting on this is purely simple. I'm sick and tired of parents forever judging me based on first impressions and on the fact that I smoke to the extend that they disallow their kids to hang out with me any longer. Like puh-lease! *Rolls eyes* I'm not as bad as you think I am. Yeah. I smoke, I drink, I club, I party, I pierced and I did other stuff in my life that I'm not exactly proud of but do you see me with tattoos all over my body, like those typical MATREPS out there? NO! I HATE TATTOOS AND I HATE MATREPS! Do you see me or hear stories of me SCREWING and FUCKING girls out there on a fling?? NO! Cuz most girls are my close friends and I respect girls too much to do that to them. Do you see me making that stupid swit-ting noise to tease girls like those typical NO-LIFERS out there?? NO! That's so 'low-class bitch'.

Secondly, I nearly lost a brother of mine whom I've come to love and look out for like as though he were my own younger brother all because his mom didn't want him to hang around with me just cuz I SMOKE and because of the fact that he would always be able to find the time to hang out with his ttm but when it came to me, there would always be a 1001 excuses. Hell!

Like I said, I NEARLY lost him but we managed to settle things once and for all online last night and now, we're still brothers. Admittedly, this was a huge incident and it was the first huge fight for the both of us but through all the mines and the bombs in this field, we actually peservered and went through this amounting pile of shit together as one and thus, it has actually brought us closer together and even strengthen our bond as brothers.

P.S: I don't wanna lose you again. Once was enough. Twice is a major blow.

8:55 AM

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Today was my second day of CIP. We started off doing gardening, before shredding old pieces of paper and doing some household chores before settling down to play with the dogs, Whiskey, Scrappy, Sunshine and Penny.

All 4 dogs were damn cute especially Penny. She especially loved being carried around like a baby. As for Scrappy, well. Lets just say that he didn't really like me much at first cuz of the strong smell of cats that I bring around with me wherever I go. I have a cat at home so what do you expect?? Haha. After grooming him with a hairbrush, playing fetch with him and tickling his tummy, he eventually grew fond of me to the extend that he followed me around wherever I went and not only that. When I laid down on the bean bag, he actually came and lied down beside me and put his paws on my lap and my hand. Napped beside Scrappy for a while before resuming our voluntary services.

P.S: Missing the 4 dogs. :D

6:51 PM

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Ok. Today I went job hunting at Downtown and Changi Airport. I need a job and FAST cuz my cash is running out. I need to get a new external harddrive, external cd drive, thumbdrive and get my lappy's sound system repaired. Most importantly, I need to buy the pre sale tic for LADY GAGA'S CONCERT!!

While I was job hunting at the airport with Tun, I hung out with Ridzuan for a while. Ever since the beach party, I think our bond as close friends are becoming stronger and tighter and closer. He's honestly a great guy to hang out with. Not as bad as I initially thought he was. Hell! He's a thousand times better than me! A good influence. Love him as a close friend of mine. :D

I'm also slightly pissed off with someone. Reasons being? Well. Lets see. Come to think of it, nah. I would much rather keep it to myself. Some things are better left unsaid.

P.S: Call me please. I need the job.

11:22 PM

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I'm beginning to HATE SP! Why? It's because they always have this sickening irritating habit of organising stupid unnecessary meetings on the days of the holidays when I already have plans laid out!!!!!

The first SD club meeting clashed with my town outing on the same day. The second SD club meeting clashed with my FCX outing on the same day. The first CIP thingy clashed with my FCX gathering on the same day. The second CIP thingy clashed with my outing with Aisya and gang on the same day. The stupid third SD club meeting and the class reps meeting clashed with Chyenne's chalet, which I'm supposed to go together with Adek Khairil. Now, I'm supposed to wake up early in the morning just to attend the damn SD club meeting, rush off to the class reps meeting and rush off home and prepare before heading off to the chalet.

Walao!!!!! Fish la! Every single one of their meetings clash with all the plans I made for the holidays and hence, I either have to postpone or cancel the plan altogether. Like fish-ed up sak! Next time round, organise the meetings on other days when I have no plans la. Damn rotten btol. Bertua. Eeeee!!!!! So damn pissed man!

P.S : Fucked up.

2:25 PM

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Perhaps it's hard. Perhaps it's hard for me to establish close friendships with people like you. No matter how hard I try, it's just tough. Because you and me come from 2 vastly different worlds. I come from a world where clubbing, partying and fun reigns supreme. Where smoking, drinking and wreaking havoc is a must. Prioritises friends and family. You, on the other hand, come from a place where goodness is the golden rule. You don't smoke nor drink. Family and school oriented. Hardworking. Fun is only a luxury. You do your 5 prayers a day.

Totally different yet alike in a way. Hmm. I wonder.

This is so random. I'm not referring to anyone in particular. This thought just hit me suddenly and I just felt like letting it off my chest so now, it's here.

P.S: Unique. Randomness.

5:10 PM

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I so wanna attend Lady GaGa's concert!!!! Guess I need to find a job and FAST!! I need the money to buy the tic for her concert!!

P.S: I wanna attend. Can? Can? Can?

3:20 PM

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The beach party yesterday was utterly disappointing. It was more like a gig cum concert kinda thing and less like a club party. Reason being? All the local bands were playing and there were like only a little dance music. The only fun part was when Mark Bonafide came out with his Bonafide Vintage Fla'vr Crew and sang their songs, such as Hey Girl and Round Round, which got me and the crowd dancing. Too bad they didn't sing Feeling Good cuz that is 1 of my most favourite locals songs ever.

To Ridzwan:

Thanks a lot bro for agreeing to follow me and my pals to the Beach Party yesterday. I'm sorry if some of them didn't talk to you at all but I think they must be having a bad day. But all the same, I hope you had fun with me, Fiqa, Tun, Bob, Zul and Petrina.

P.S: Utterly disappointing.

12:42 PM

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Yesterday was the FCX outing. I left home at around 12+ and met up with my brother, Afiq, in front of his school, where we proceeded to meet Hussein under his block. We hung out there and shortly later, my brother's members joined us and the keconess began. We joked and laughed our asses off at the stupid things they were each taking in turns to say and do although it was unplanned.

I dropped my brother, Afiq, off home first before bussing my ass down to White Sands to meet up with the FCX family there(Bob, Ali, Miko, Man, Jaz, Tun). Plans kept on shuffling and changing at the very last minute but eventually, we decided to proceed to town. Met up with Fiqa in the train. Waited for Azhar Botak Ns at Somerset. Cam whored a while. Proceeded to Heeren to do a spot of WINDOW shopping.

Went to Cineleisure to have our dinner as we were starving. After that, we were cam-whoring while smoking in front of Cineleisure. At around 7, we seperated. Bob, Azhar, Fiqa, Tun and myself stayed behind as we wanted to catch Drag Me To Hell while the rest went off to a pit or chalet at Downtown.

Oh God! I'm telling you. Drag Me To Hell is 1 of the BEST horror movies I've ever watched. It's a unique combination of horror, suspense, thriller and comedy. They scared us in all the right places and the ending was FANTASTIC. You guys should catch that movie in any theatres near you. IT'S FREAKING AWESOME!

P.S: Had great fun yesterday.

9:07 AM

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Today was damn hectic. I had to wake up early in the morning and make my way down to ACRES at Choa Chu Kang for the CIP, together with Sam, Wx and Rina. It was fun! We cleared the pathway, washed the van, played with the dogs(I'm beginning to miss Whiskey) and made the ribbon badges for thr prize winners of an upcoming animal competition.

Went off at around 3 and headed to Burger King at Downtown for the FCX gathering. We listened to Kak Rozy's version of events and proceeded to FCX to have our dinner. Things happened. I'm sorry but I'm not gonna mention the series of events that took place as firstly, I'm too damn pissed and secondly, it's kinda personal as it's only among us EX-FCX staff. All I can say right now is those few bastards who did that to us in FCX just now will get what they deserve.

Proceeded back to BK where we slacked, joked around, discussed stuff regarding our outing tomorrow and other things and basically enjoyed each other's company before heading home.

Now, for the moment of truth. Did you guys know that all this while the SINGAPORE ZOO has actually been ABUSING its animals? I discovered this while I was doing my CIP at ACRES earlier on.

There was this particular incident where a baby chimpanzee no longer wanted to sit on people's laps and take pictures with them as it was already tired. Know what the bloody zookeeper did? The zookeeper actually brought it to the back of the enclosure and PUNCHED IT STRAIGHT IN THE FACE! The poor baby chimpanzee was squealing in pain. The zookeeper then brought it back to the audience, where it continued taking pictures with the people as it was afraid of being physically hurt again. This was fully witnessed by the founder of ACRES. God! I feel saddened just thinking about this alone. Fucking cruelty? Wait till you hear this next incident.

Have you guys actually watched the animal shows at the Zoo? Were you amazed at the animals' so-called abilities and talent? Well. Guess what peeps? The animals were STARVED FOR THE WHOLE ENTIRE DAY just so that they would do the show. It's like they threaten the animals that if they don't do the show, then the bloody zookeepers WON'T FEED THEM! I was like shocked out of my wits when I heard this.

The seals in their enclosure are actually BLIND due to cateract. Why? Because instead of seawater, which they thrive in, they are actually living in FRESH WATER THAT WAS MIXED WITH SALT! In other words, it's not even REAL SEA WATER at all but it's FAKE! It's no wonder that the seals are blind.

The polar bear exhibit? Well. The exhibit is TOO CRAMPED for the polar bear to live in and they are just like forced to live in those kinda cramped conditions.

The only reason why the Zoo is still open is cuz the government actually SUPPORTS it as it's generating MONEY for the country. Think about it. Indirectly, the government is actually SUPPORTING ANIMAL ABUSE IN THE ZOO YET THEY OPEN UP THE SPCA(SOCIETY FOR THE PREVENTION OF CRUELTY TO ANIMALS). Ironic isn't it? Is this what we call being honest? Is this what we call being upfront? This is what I deem as HYPOCRISY. You don't know what goes on behind closed doors.

I support ACRES for exposing all these nasty details about the Zoo. So people, spread the word. DON'T GO TO THE ZOO! FUCKING ANIMAL ABUSERS! What was printed in the papers regarding the Zoo are nothing but LIES! FABRICATED TRUTHS!

P.S: Damn these animal abusers. Screw them!

11:41 PM

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So I went down to City Hall with Tun today to return the Butter Fac tics to Deb. Met up with the usuals, being Aisya, Sue and Fendi. Slacked at the Esplanade. Bussed our asses to Tampines to get ciggies. Played Taiti as usual. Went off to meet Afiq.

I know my post today is not as detailed as it normally is cuz I just can't be bothered today, lol. Anyways, I just wanna give a shout out to a couple of peeps.

Zakk & Tun:

Thanks darlings for asking me of my well being, for being there for me and for listening to me yesterday. I really appreciate it loads gals. I LOVE YOU GALS!

Adek Afiq and Adek Khairil:

Thanks bros for a rocking good time yesterday and for helping me get through the past few days. Really appreciate it loads. Love you both.

I wanna give a couple more shout outs but I think that what I'm about to say is best kept to myself. Not everything can be said out loud.

P.S: Easy to hate. Hard to love.

11:40 PM

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Ok. So I just woke up at around 12.50 in the afternoon. Grabbed a quick shower and now here I am blogging.

I still can't stop thinking about how much fun I had yesterday with both my younger brothers, Afiq and Khairil, and my close pals, Aiman, Aisya, Fendi and Tun. From playing the guitars to singing along to the songs we know, like Thunder and Secret Valentine, to playing rounds of Taiti and constantly trying to beat each other to get to the top, it was damn fun! Besides, it's been a really long time since the 4 of us guys, being both my bros, Aiman and myself hung out together as one. I miss the old times.

Now I gotta get ready. Going off to City Hall for a while to meet up with Deb to return the Butter Factory tickets. Thanks A LOT to all those peeps who PAITAO.

Will blog again later.

P.S: I'm happy. Finally. :D

1:25 PM

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Ok. So today was totally unexpected but I think the Almighty must have heard my prayers and I thank Him for that.

Today, my only plan was to hang out with my brother, Afiq and just play the guitar. At the very last minute, while I wanted to go offline, I invited my adek, Adek Khairil skli to join us and he did. Shortly after that, while we were hanging out, Aisya texted me and Tun called me up and the both of them asked me the same thing.

Am I hanging out?

So they joined us, and Aisya intro-ed me to her new guy, Fendi. I invited Aiman over to join us and he also did. So we played rounds of Taiti and joked and teased each other as per normal. Aisya and Fendi went off around 8.20. Tun went off shortly after that. So it was down to just us 4 guys. Me, my adek, Adek Khairil, my brother, Afiq and my close pal, Aiman.

Damn! It's been a really long time since we 4 guys hung out together! The last time the 4 of us hung out together was like MONTHS ago at Stage. After that, all of us became extremely caught up with our busy lifestyles and rarely met each other although we still kept in contact. Afiq and I were just saying a couple of weeks ago that hopefully, the 4 of us can meet up, catch up and hang out together for old times' sake and the Almighty heard and answered our prayers. Alhamdulillah syukur :D

P.S: Thanks peeps for a really great day today. Love y'all to death.

12:01 AM

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I think it's about time I cleared things up once and for all. Apparently some IDIOT doesn't understand.

Why we broke up?

Firstly, I'm sick and tired of you forever finding my brother, Afiq, and telling him everything from how you want me to show you care and concern to just about everythingelse and pretending that you don't have the courage to tell me truthfully to my face when the ACTUAL truth is, you simply either can't be bothered or don't want to. Oh and fyi, Afiq actually told me off because every single time we clash, he's always involved and caught up in the middle and he's sick and tired of that. We nearly fought ok. Happy now?!

Secondly, you go around bragging to every single one of your pals and even posting on your blog about how UNROMANTIC I am, trying to embarrass me. What the FUCK do you take me for? An animal exhibit?? Yeah. I admit. When we fought, I would post it up on my blog on why I'm pissed off with you. Why? Well then. That's basically my way of getting back at you. You don't even tell me anything in the first place and you even go around my back and complain every little thing to my brother, Afiq, till he's sick and tired of it. So why the fuck should I even tell you anything, let alone tell you that I'm pissed off with you?!

Thirdly, just because both my brothers, Afiq and Khairil, has become your adek agkt too, I hate the fact that you think that you can take advantage of them, manipulate them and constantly hound and bug them by asking them and telling them everything about me. Right about now that we've broken up, if you still wanna contact them or if you still wanna maintain your close friendships with them, by all means, go ahead. I DON'T mind at all cuz I DON'T WANT THEM TO LOSE YOU AS A SISTER just because we broke up. I care too much about them to see them feeling down. The 4 of us can still hang out together like before but the only difference is I won't talk to you at all. So long as you DON'T ASK THEM ABOUT ME, TELL THEM ANYTHING ABOUT ME OR FORCE THEM TO TELL YOU ANYTHING ABOUT ME CUZ I DON'T EVEN WANNA HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE!! Drill this into that thick skull of yours.

Fourthly, I admit. I rarely say those 3 words to you. Even so, I still showed it to you through my actions, not my words. But did you even appreciate it??!! NO! You even had the audacity to DEMAND FOR MORE! What did you tell people?? I wish Bal would show his care and concern for me. Your MSN pm? Sometimes I wonder if you even care. Is that what you call accepting me for who I am when you so clearly want me to be a different type of guy??! I don't think so. So throughout all this time that we were together, you were blind to the fact that I was SHOWING you my love, care and concern for you?! You want me to go all out and declare to the whole wide world that 'OH! I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART! I CARE A LOT ABOUT YOU! LET ME SHOWER YOU WITH MY CONCERN!'. *Spits and pukes all over the ground* That is so NOT me. I'm not the mushy2, lovey dovey, sweet talker type of person, like other typical guys out there, as you should know very well. Or do you even know it?? I doubt so.

Lastly, why is it that you got jealous that I was talking to Azlina the other day when its already perfectly clear that she's already attached and so am I at that point in time?! I remember you telling me that you don't mind me talking to other girls when I'm with you. Hell! You even told a couple of your girlfriends to grind with me on the dancefloor! And suddenly, you just go back on your word and start getting jealous that I'm talking to her?! FYI, we were talking about the company that the both of us are coincidentally working for together without knowing and our funny and nasty work experiences. I don't see any reason for you to get jealous. So what does that mean? That you're also jealous that Tun's my besty?! That I'm much more closer to other gals than I am to you?!! UURRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!

Oh and just a fair bit of advice. Tkmu fitnahkan aku. Aku TK KESA lao ko msey nk contact dgn dorg ke rpt dgn dorg. Tp lao aku dpt tau yg ko fitnahkn aku in a sense that ko g blg dorg yg aku tk kasi ko contact dorg ag at all when I DID NOT EVEN SAY THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

P.S: Don't fitnahkan aku. I hate you. I hate you to the core.

11:22 AM

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I was so damn pissed yesterday although I had a great time last night.

Firstly, I can't believe that you of all people would actually BACKSTAB her and bitch around about us to the HQ peeps, saying all kinds of crap about us! Your pay was already INCREASED by her from 1.1k to 1.4k and she helped you out A LOT by lessening your workload, removing your burden and only giving you the ordering of stocks to do and yet, you turn around and stab her in the back????!!! FUCK YOU YOU MOTHERFUCKING BACKSTABBING WHORE!!!!!! Remember this. You're only a FOREIGNER who came here to work to help your family out so don't you dare by all means climb over our heads and take advantage of us. When I first started working there, I had the utmost respect for you but now when I look at you, OMG! You're like worse than a slug that's wriggled around in the pig's shit for weeks. Matter of fact, you're even worse than the shit that I pass out from my ass every single day. After so long, you finally decided to show your true colours huh bitch? Tired of sucking up to her and to us just to get any juicy titbits you can lay your hands on to report to the HQ peeps, most of which are greatly exaggerated?! YOU'RE AN UNGRATEFUL IMBECILE!! A BACKSTABBING BITCH!! A MOTHERFUCKING SLUT!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DESERVE TO DIE YOU FILTHY SLUMDOG!!!! I HATE YOU SLUT!!!!! Urrgh! The mere sight of you is enough to drive me up the wall!!!!

Secondly, I'm officially single. Reason being? Well, loads actually. First and foremost, your MSN PMs are always about me and when I ask you what's wrong, you don't tell me anything and say that I'm just being paranoid and yada yada but when my brother, Afiq, asks you, you tell him that it's all about me and you even tell him EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN THING. I'm your guy. No wait. I'm your EX and I know that it was all about me so why choose not to tell me when I ask you but instead go behind my back and tell my brother?? Secondly, yeah. I know that I'm the most UNROMANTIC guy you've ever had the unfortunate luck to meet and I rarely utter those 3 words to you for fear that what happened in my previous relationships might occur again but when I DO say it to you, regardless of whether it's via text message or MSN or face-to-face, you don't have to go BRAGGING about it to your pals ampi nk BESAR2KAN ampi nk post on your blog for the whole wide world to see!!! That is supposed to be in our personal life! Unless the word 'personal' isn't even in your bloody dictionary! Thirdly, I know that my brother and some of my close pals have become your adek agkt and your close pals too. But just because it's so, don't you dare take advantage of that fact and manipulate them to your expletive or start thinking that you can hound and bug them about me, by asking them about me and telling them everything about me and about what we did!! Fourthly, you're a nosey parker aren't you? The other day, when I was talking to Azlina about some personal stuff at work as the both of us are working for the same company, you did your slumber face and kpo2 nak join in and listen to our conversation. When I told you to back off, you gave that muke burok of yours and your attitude. I'm like WTF?!!!

UURRGGHH!! You know what? Forget it. I'm like so pissed just posting about this. I'm not even going to Butter Factory tomorrow cuz I'm not in the mood to club.

P.S: Backstabbing bitch (A***)

12:47 PM

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Ok2. Guess I really couldn' be bothered to update my blog of my daily whereabouts cuz I was in like a sunken stupor, feeling lethargic to the extend that I was too lazy to even think, let alone get off my fat ass and do anything.

THURSDAY:

Met up with Tun, Sue, Kaz, Fadhli, Arif and Aisya at Small Mac before bussing our asses down to Hougang to accompany Sue fore her final smoking counselling session. In the bus, we were talking about age and guess what TUN? You're the only one who thinks that I'm OLD while the rest of them thinks that I look YOUNGER than my ACTUAL AGE! In your face biatch! *Winks at Tun*. The crappy thing is Sue's turning 18 this year yet the authorities still considers her as an underage smoker?! Stupid dumbshits! While waiting for her, we played like numerous rounds of Taiti. Ate late lunch at KFC before going our seperate ways. Arif and Sue headed home while the rest of us(except for Fadhli) proceeded to DTE. Along the way, we were talking about first impressions and THANK YOU KAZ for NOT thinking that I'm a matrep when you first met me. *Winks at Tun again*

Headed to Central to meet my BROTHER, AFIQ! Missed that irritating yet loveable brother of mine. Played a few rounds of Taiti AGAIN. Honestly, I swear that Taiti is actually becoming our obssession nowadays. Sheesh.

FRIDAY:

Went for Friday prayers with my brother, Afiq. Yeah, I just said that didn't I? Hung out with him under his void deck after Friday prayers before MRT-ing my ass all the way down to SP just to return a fucking consent form before heading to DTE. Waste of my time right? Sheesh. *Rolls eyes*

TODAY:

I swear that I was playing the Silver version of Pokemon on my cell from the moment I woke up up till around 4+ when I sent my brother off to Silat. Supposed to meet Saiful at DTE but then, the weather got into one of its nasty moodswings so our plan to meet up was cancelled and I fetched my brother home from Silat after he finished before going back home to continue playing my Pokemon game.

I swear that the first week of the holidays are like /\/\/\/\/\. Know what that means? Boring. Next week is gonna be jam-packed.

15h June - SP CIP for ONOW assignment
16th June - Party at Butter Factory
17th June - Rest at home/slacking around with my usuals/BDC Hw
18th June - CIP
19th June - FCX Outing
20th June - Close SP Friends Outing
21st June - Rest at home/Slacking with my usuals/BDC Hw
25th June - Adek Khairil's ex gf's pit
28th June - Nur's coming back from Indonesia!! No more household chores for me! YIPEE!

P.S: Brace myself. :)

11:19 PM

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3 words.

-Shagged-

-Bored-

-Stoning-

3:03 PM

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Yeah. So I just got back home from a shopping spree at Penin. My initial plan was to get a small camera bag but then, my eyes spotted other stuff there that were damn nice as well so instead of spending only $13 on a bag, I ended up blowing $120 on a shirt, 2 pairs of berms, a camera bag, 2 v-necked t-shirts, a black printed t-shirt and a pair of faded denim skinnys.

*Adek Khairil - Now I know why you went on a t-shirt shopping frenzy at Ministry of Clothing. The t-shirts are like freaking awesome!*

Anyway, I just read the papers just now and apparently, its full of stories regarding maid and animal abuse. Can you believe this? The maid's employers actually threw hot water all over her face and body, scalding everything. As for the animal abuse story, the puppy's owners actually tied it up in a plastic bag and dumped it at East Coast Park. Another incident. This lorry driver hit a dog and drove off with the dog still stuck in between its wheels or under the vehicle to the extend that one of the dog's legs was actually broken and mutilated.

If you wanna adopt or get yourself a pet, then for God's sake, look after it and shower it with TLC. For all those dimwits who have no idea what TLC means, it stands for Tender-Loving-Care. Don't just dump it anywhere you like simply cuz you can't be bothered. How would you like it if you were to grow old and your kids just tie you up in a big black trash bag, haul you off in their vehicles and dump you at any beach or dumpster??!!! You would hate it right!! I'm sorry but I'm an avid animal lover and I HATE to see animals being abused by these low-lifers.

To all you ANIMAL ABUSERS out there, don't you ever dare think that you can simply abuse an animal just because you've got nothing better to do with your screwed life. Remember that karma's a bitch. What you do to these poor pitiful animals will come back to haunt you. FUCK YOU if you're sadistic enough to abuse or torture animals cuz it goes to show how deprived you are of love,care and concern. *Flashes the middle finger to the animal abusers!*

P.S: Fuck animal abusers.

10:33 PM

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I am so effing screwed! My external hard drive is SPOILT!! The best part? ALL MY SONGS, PICTURES, VIDEOS AND ASSIGNMENTS, INCLUDING THE ONE I'M SUPPOSED TO SUBMIT TOMORROW ARE INSIDE! Microsoft programmes are also stored inside. Without the external hard drive, I'm as good as dead.

P.S: FUCKED UP

12:45 AM

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Why are BGRs irritating at times? I specifically made it clear that I prioritise my close friends first before BGRs. We meet each other like EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN DAY in school before the holidays so all my time was spent with you. But now that it's already the holidays, I think it's about time I spend time with my close friends. So if I don't pay attention to you now or for the next 3 weeks, I'm sorry but I simply can't be bothered cuz of the fact that all my time was spend with you in school. 3 weeks break is a time to test how strong or fragile our relationship is.

I'm not like other guys. They go around like dogs, doing everything their girlfriend asks them to do. Sorry but I ain't gonna be one of them. I have my own true sense of identity and I'm my own person.

And just because I don't tell you that I love you doesn't mean that I don't. I show it through my actions, not my words. In my perspective, the more you tell your stead that you love them, the more they take advantage of you, taking that as your weakness. I've been in numerous relationships before with the last one being in 2007, before I got together with you and all of them were the same. I told them repeatedly that I loved them and what did I get?? Played behind my back. Stabbed. Betrayed. Fooled. Pulled wool over my eyes. So now, I'm no longer that weak, pathetic arse I was back then in relationships.

Spend time with your other friends and family, which is what I'm doing now. Hell. I don't miss you cuz I know that I'll be able to see you soon in like 3 weeks time. But I miss my other close friends cuz I have no idea when I'll be able to see them or hang out with them, now that all of us are occupied with our own lives.

P.S: Bear with it.

3:29 PM

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Ok. So I just got back home after hanging out with my brother, Afiq, and his friend. After accompanying his friend home, we were hanging out under the void deck while smoking when my brother suddenly said:

Afiq: I just feel so happy.

Me: Asal sey?

Afiq: I just feel so happy that you're my brother and aku pon tktau asal aley2 aku rse gni.

I was like damn touched man when he told me that.

We started off disliking each other simply cuz our first impressions of each other were 'Matrep'. We didn't get close yet until 1 week after I started working. That was when we started talking to each other and from there, we started hanging out with each other together with my other brother, Khairil, and my close pal, Aiman. Slowly but surely, we progressed to become brothers and that was like the locking point of us becoming so damn close.

Afiq. If you're reading this, just note that you never fail to make me happy with your jokes and you forever teasing me. Seeing you happy makes me happy. Yeah, we had a misunderstanding once and I'm sorry for that cuz it was partly my fault. You're like a younger brother to me and I'll always treasure every single moment that we spent together cuz to me, these memories that are forged can never be replaced by wealth or anythingelse for that matter. I love you A LOT bro.

P.S: Touched. :)

12:04 AM

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Last night was Bob's farewell party. We got the ball rolling around 12+ in the morning and the celebration lasted for like an hour or so, what with glorious food and the sabotage schemes. Cool or what?! Hahaha!

Proceeded to Coffee Express. Tun and I were somehow craving for something more alcoholic so we pooled our money together with some of the FCX staff who wanted to drink, and bought Absolut Vodka.

Headed to Seashell Park where the 5 of us, who shared money, began to drink. We cracked jokes, laughed and basically enjoyed each other's company with the rest of the staff who did not drink but were simply there at the park to hang out with us.

Then, the motherfucking cops had to come and spoil a lil bit of our fun but Thank God they understood and did not do anything to us except for screening us.

That was when the whole lot of us dispersed. I sent Adek Khairil home first before heading home at around 3.30am.

P.S: They're like a second family to me. That's how strong our bond is. Love you guys.

1:05 PM

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When you're happy with your current stead, you ditch me. But when you fight with your current stead or you break up with your current stead, you come crying to me and you know how to find me. But when you make things up with your current stead, you immediately dessert me without even thanking me or saying anything at all for that matter!

We used to be close. Back then, it was always the 4 of us that stuck together after the rest quit their jobs. Shortly after, Adek Khairil became extremely busy with his O Levels preparations and we rarely met him so it was down to the 3 of us. Now, just because you're already attached, you're always sticking with your lover and going out with you lover like EVERY SINGLE TIME! When I ask you out, you say you're not free. But you're free to go out with your lover. So what does this tell us? That you can't even find the time to hang out with me for a short little while but you've got all the time in the world to go out with your lover. You left me stranded and waiting and waiting hopelessly for your text or call to hang out but in vain.

Damn! I don't hate you. I really don't. I just can't take this fucked up crap any longer. You've changed a lot. Yeah. As time goes by, people change but you? You changed DRASTICALLY! You only find me in times of need but when you don't need me, I get discarded like a piece of filthy stinking trash. Just what do you take me for? Your SLUMDOG?!

I've given up all hopes already. The next time round, when you fight with your lover, please, by all means. Feel free to NOT text me, call me or find me cuz I won't even bother about it no more.

Why should I give a damn when it's not even my business in the first place? Why should I care about you any longer when you obviously don't even care about our close friendship in the first place? Why should I even waste my time listening to you ranting away about how pissed off your lover makes you feel when I can accomplish so many other meaningful things with my precious time?

If you happen to be reading this and you know that it's all about you, I would tell you this. Before you get pissed with me for even posting about this, think back through all the times from the moment when we first knew each other on the 12th of November up till now. Think about how things between us were back then and how things between us are currently. Spot the differences. Not just the major ones but the minor ones too. Once you've already done this, you will know who really is at fault here and who should be pissed off in the first place. Don't you dare come screaming at me and picking a fight with me because EVERYTHING that I stated in this very post is TRUE! NOT ONE WORD OF IT IS A LIE NOR IS IT EXAGGERRATED!

P.S: Think. Think carefully.

2:37 PM

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Last night, I went riding with Abg Wan. Headed down to T-Mart to purchase ciggies but sadly, they were out. Bumped into Aliff, Saiful, Mat and Shikin so I chatted with them for a while before heading off to Afghan, where thank GOD, they had. Proceeded to Downtown East to hang out with my FCX family.

Anyways, I was like wikipedia surfing on an article regarding the Pussycat Dolls, due to their concert here a couple of days back. *Fadzly!!! I'm so effing jealous!!!!!* Apparently, Nicole Scherzinger is like HOGGING the limelight of the dolls. Don't believe me? Listen to Jai Ho and Hush Hush and you'll notice that she's CONQUERING the LEAD and BACKGROUND VOCALS.

None of my business, I know but what's the point of calling yourselves 'The Pussycat Dolls' if it's only gonna be ONE EFFING SINGER who sings the LEAD & BACKGROUND VOCALS, while the other dolls are simply there to look good, dance and act like HOES?! Stupid isn't it?

P.S: The holidays are finally here!

1:22 PM

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Ok. Today is my erm..Third last day of school. 1 of the reasons which made me so happy!

Anyways, to start things off, Rina and I went down to e-Hub to meet my adek, Khairil for a while as he was supposedly supposed to go bowling there with his pals but ended up cancelling their bowling plans and window shopping around East Point instead. We hung out with him for a while before he went off to meet his pals.

We then headed to the Study Corner to hang out with my bro, Afiq and Tun, who joined us with a just-got-out-of-bed look. *Sniggers* It was damn KECO LA SIA! Damn FUN! We joked around and dared my bro to do some stupid stuff which UNFORTUNATELY, he DIDN'T have the balls to do so(not for that moment in time anyway; there's a later part which is strictly between him and me).

Rina and Tun went back home. Afiq and I headed to the toilet at Central to shit! I swear the second floor toilet at Central is like 'calling' us to shit everytime we go there. If you get my drift. Accompanied him to get his mom's blood test results before proceeding home to hang out with Kak Rina and Jade Jaffar! Da lame gler sey tk jmp dorg! Da 3 months to be exact!!! Adek Khairil came back home around say 8.50 and we hung out and spend some much needed quality time as adek beradek together.

Now, I'm at home. Just finished part 1 of my G.C assignment. Tomorrow's part 2.

P.S: K.A.R, you guys never fail to make my day. Love you 3 a LOT!

12:07 AM

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Calling ALL CLUBBERS!

There's an event at Butter Factory on the 16th of June. Pre-sale tics are going for $20; tics at the door are going for $22. The theme is 'Uniform'. Means that you guys can use ANY uniform, be it Japanese School Uniforms or Firemen uniforms, so long as there are NO SCHOOL BADGES! And just because the theme is 'Uniform' doesn't mean that you guys have to come in your uniforms. You DON'T have to. Just dress in your best clubbing outfit or attire yaw. Priority entrance will be given to those sporting uniforms. If you're interested in buying the tics, feel free to contact me via text, e-mail or MSN cuz I'm helping to sell the tics. So faster!!

P.S: Be there or be square!!

11:06 AM