Beauty & The Beast

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Body. Heart. Mind. Soul. The 4 main aspects of any human being. According to Sean Covey's book meant for teens, all teenagers should strengthen these 4 aspects of themselves in order to lead a happy and balanced lifestyle. For me. An interior design student? I'm breaking my head and mind open every single day with assignments so that's done. Heart wise, I love my family, younger brother and close friends so that can be crossed off my list. I only need to work on my body and soul aspects in order to attain enlightenment. Haha! :)

Apparently, I finally figured out what was wrong with me since way back in April. What turned me into this fucked up bastard that I am. It's the bad habits that have been incorporated into me for so long, for years, in fact, that's making me so bitter and cold and resentful. I'm currently working on breaking these bad habits bit by bit so that eventually, in time to come, I will be able to break and get rid of these bad habits once and for all for good. It will be a long road ahead of me but if I can persevere and get through this winding road, I've got a lot of positive consequences that are waiting for me ahead.

I can't guarantee that I will be able to get you back in my life and that, we can become close back again like before cuz that is up to the hands of Allah. Chances of us becoming close back again like last time are almost close to zero. But I still have hopes.

I know that by breaking these bad habits and getting rid of them permanently will change people's perception of me. I will be able to make many more new friends this way. I won't lose anymore friends. My life will be completely better. I'm actually smiling while posting this cuz I know that in time to come, things will get better.

She was right. She will watch me fall and she did watch me fall. I did get hurt. I did get a taste of my own medication. Finding out the truth from her actually shocked me cuz I didn't expect it. The things she told me that shocked me has nothing to do with her and me. It's to do with me and someone else. But I guess I deserved it. I deserved what I got. Losing my close friend actually shook up my world and brought me back down to Earth. Having the hurtful truth unfold before my very eyes by what she told me last night actually gave me a tight reality slap on my face and brought me back to my senses.

P.S: I will change. But will someone notice?

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