Beauty & The Beast

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I just wanna get this off my chest so please bear with me.

Lately, it seems that you're not doing your part as a friend, as a brother. Everytime you tell me stuff, like how your friend, whom I don't even know is having problems, or about your fear of how your MT O Level results would turn out or you considering joining Afiq's band, you unconsciously expect me to pay attention to you and to give you consoling words of comfort, even though most of the time, I barely know who you're talking about.

However, when it's my turn to like confide my fears in you or to share stuff with you, you always keep quiet and when I nudge you, you snap at me, telling me that you're busy reading the papers or STOMP or simply busy. To cap it off, just now when I told you about how my dance members are not committed to practice sessions for the performance at my school's party next 2 weeks, due to the submissions that are keeping them occupied, you simply kept quiet again as usual. When I said 'as usual u mls nk lyn', you could even said 'yea' and you immediately started telling me about you not being sure when the MT O Level results will be released and that you think you might get a C for it and indirectly, in a subconscious manner, you expect me to pay attention to all that you have to say while what I have to say is simply insignificant and you can't be bothered to listen.

I've gotten used to the fact that you simply can't be bothered to chat with me online no more, unlike last time and that, you always somehow or rather expect me to pay attention to everything that you've got to say while what I wanna tell you simply falls on intentional deaf ears. I may have gotten used to it but at times like now, for instance, it sucks ok. It hurts.

Whatever happened to the times back when we were extremely close to the extend that we hung out with each other like almost everyday? What happened to us being extremely close with each other, where we could easily share our fears, secrets and problems among us and pay attention to each other whenever one party is down, to the extend that a lot of people actually mistakenly thought that we were real siblings? Times have sure changed, haven't they?

P.S: Sometimes I wonder.

11:15 PM