Beauty & The Beast

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Today is Christmas Eve. Which means to say that 2009 will be over in a week's time and boy. Am I glad to see 2009 go out the door.

2009 hasn't exactly been a bed of roses for me what with all the turmoil, drama and saga that took place this year. I mean, it wasn't all bad. There were pretty good memories but comparing the good memories to the bad times, the bad times far outweighs the good ones. -.-

Bad Times:

-Got together and broke up.
-Politics breaking out in my cliques.
-Fought with one of my NNK friends a couple of times, all cuz of conflicting perspectives but thankfully, we made up.
-Lost a very close, beloved friend of mine and now, we're still friends but we're no longer as close as before and I doubt that we can ever become very close back again like last time. Till this very day, whenever the memories and the good times we shared comes flooding back, tears well up in my eyes. Cuz I know that things between us can never be the same again. Yes. I've finally accepted the fact that you're gone but that doesn't necessarily mean that I don't feel hurt by it. I'm afraid to love for fear that I will get hurt back again like what happened back then.
-Family troubles.
-Worried about my younger brother's O Level results.
-Worried about my other close friends' condition due to the shits that's been hurled at them.
-My best friend and I got terminated UNFAIRLY all cuz of some FUCKED UP FEELING HIGH CLASS BIATCH CUSTOMER who lodged a FALSE complain against us, thus shattering our rice bowls and causing us to be jobless until now. ~Curse you and your mother fucken family! Hope karma hits you back 10 TIMES WORSE than what you did to us you fucken slimeball!
-One of my close friends got fined $550 for possession of contraband ciggs and for being an underaged smoker and all of us had to break our heads open to figure out a way for him to get the money.
-My aunty called me up, complaning to me, suspecting that my cousin, whom I'm very close with, is on drugs.

Good Times:

-On the other hand, the GYLC at Batam was very very memorable and sweet. Made a lot of new and close friends there. Ash(my beloved bro), Khairil, Fikry, Dana, Afiq, K.Y, Kelly, Sufea, Rahmat. Bonded even closer with the SD clique who attended the camp.
-National Day 09 was by far the second best day of my life other than the GYLC days. Cuz I got to hang out and spend time with my most beloved peeps on that day.
-Broke fast at Geylang together with the Fuckers clique
-Jalan raya together with the FCX, Fuckers and SD & GYLC clique

Overall, I think that the bad times I've faced this year far outweighs the good ones. Even my younger brother, Adek Khairil, told me that this year hasn't been a good year for him or for his friends for that matter. Everywhere I turn to, I hear stories from my friends about their current situations and the problems they're facing and all of us unanimously agreed that 2009 OFFICIALLY SUCK BALLS!

I haven't exactly made my New Year Resolutions yet. I'm not even sure whether I wanna make them or no. Cuz I know that I tend to break the resolutions I've set for myself. However, I'm not exactly growing any younger by the day. It's about time I made resolutions and DISCIPLINE myself to stick by them for the entire year and NOT break them. I guess I'll make my New Year Resolutions soon.

~To everyone, whom I am/were close with (Bros, FCX, Fuckers, SD, GYLC, NNK, Other peeps whom I'm close with) :

I just wanna thank you guys for everything you've done for me. No matter how small the deed is, it is appreciated by me. I'm sorry if I ever hurt and offended you guys with what I said and did to you before. I'm sorry if I ever lost my temper with you, allowed my ego to get in the way or showed my attitude. I'm grateful to Allah for the fact that I have you guys around in my life and you guys motivate me and spur me onto greater heights.

Special thanks goes out to Afiq, Khairil, Tun, Zakk, Qom, Aliff, Kaz and Ash. You guys were always there for me whenever I needed someone. You've heard me laugh, you've seen me cry and you know my sorrows. You guys understood me from the inside out. We've been through ups and downs together. What, I shall not elaborate cuz that's between each of you and me. But just know that from the bottom of my heart, I really appreciate all the times when you guys took the time off to listen to me ranting away about the shits I was facing back then, when you guys were there for me whenever I hit rock bottom and to give me a comforting hug when I needed one. I love the 8 of you tremendously and nothing and noone can replace you guys.

Now. All I can do is to pray to Allah and hope that the next year, being 2010, will be a better year, not just for me, but for everyoneelse out there who felt that 2009 was full of nothing but crap and bullshit.

P.S: Please let 2010 be a better year.

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